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♪♫ Last Night? ♪♫

2012-01-16T10:56:00.000-08:00

Time really flies so fast~
just a clips of eyes, my Sem 1 in UUM is almost ended~
during this 4 months of time~
i learned a lot and i have my many first time as well~
the experience that i never have chances to gain in city's life~
i ain't saying that it can compare with city life~
but its really a unforgettable moment in my life~

I still remember when the first day i steps into UUM~
i feel weird and feel surprise~
because UUM is really huge like hell~
and i feel quite boring because my best friend will stay a long distance with me~
and the comment that they gave to UUM is really like jungles?
nothing can eat, nothing can enjoy~
its just exactly like go into jail!! :0
and i was really believe and feel scare with it~

But after i enter UUM~
i just realized that its not as bad as they comment on~
the life over here is quite relax and enjoyable~
*maybe i just sem 1 and know nothings?* lol
overall the life over here needs independence and socialize~
once you without this 2 things you might get boycott by friends~
but once you met with good senior the situation might changed~
maybe i'm indirectly mention someone~

no no no!!!
get back to my own train, get back to my own train~
as i said i did experienced a lot of new things~
which can consider my First time~
--possible visit to my friends room no matter how late the night is~
--need not to worry walk alone along the road no matter morning or night~
--watch meteor together with my seniors, not only once~
--study until morning without sleep~
--gambling until morning and i just be a audience~ =.=
--go to have breakfast @ supper at 5am at Changlun (chinese style & malay style)
--went to Kuala Perlis to have dinner x 2 times~
--went to Kuala Perlis see sunset~
--went to Changlun have dinner x few times~
--went to Penang have 4 days 3 nights trip~
and many many many many many many many manyyyyyyyyyy more~

but most of all must thanks to all my senior that accompanied us~
i admit that some of the action is really not suitable to learn it~
but i did appreciate anything that they taught me~
because i learned self control when the things comes to me~
but not addicted on it~
besides that~
i really want to say thousand times of thank you to selected seniors~
like Ben Ow, Boon Hock, Anson and JiXiang~
they did taught me and helps me a lot when i was in troubles~
especially Ben Ow and Boon Hock~
they 2 really a funny guys~
when i face both of them my unhappiness will totally disappear!!
its true~
you wouldn't believe unless you meet with them~

and i feel lucky because i did met many good friends over here~
no matter those who same course with me or not~
no matter those who same DPP with me or not~
i feel really lucky and blessed~
Thank God!

Its really a nice footsteps during this sem~
the footsteps is really memorable~
it won't too big and won't too small~
guess what??
many people told me my emo was reduced~
not reduced but is disappear~
not a fact but its on the way to be a fact soon~

Seriously i wish to say this to all my senior~
but of course i won't speak out~
if not misunderstanding might occur~ ==
Hey my beloved Senior~
Thanks for all the experience that you transfer to me~
guess what?
i really feel scare of next sem~
because i scare i will lose such a good batch of seniors like you guys~
i really miss all the moment together with you all!!!
IT'S TRUE!! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

♪♫ unforgettable night ♪♫

2011-12-19T08:39:00.000-08:00

19/12/2011
This day can be my most unforgettable day since i get into local Uni~
i did quite a lot of things during a day of time~
morning before 5am we had gambling and chit-chat section in my room~
*although I'm not really willing to sit there and doing nothing*
but i not regret because i get a good breakfast after that~
after 5am we went out to Changlun a malay store to have our breakfast~

The reason we will choose that shop is because many of them comment that that shop is well-known with the nasi lemak~
but too bad that i didn't taste the nasi lemak but i tried the roti canai~
not bad, if have chances i will choose to go there one more time~
after that went back to room and sleep like nobody until i almost late for my class~
oppps~
i should say that enjoy should sacrificed with something else~

after all the class ended i get to know that we will going to Kuala Perlis~
my first expression is Oh My Gosh!!!
I'm going to enjoy again!!
then my senior fetch us go to Kuala Perlis to see the sea and having seafood as our dinner~

we took a lot of picture over there and enjoy the sea-wind blow towards to us~
the happiness can't describe with words, seriously~
after that we went to have our most high classes dinner ever since i enter UUM~
and after that we go and buy secret recipe for our friends that in UUM~

opps~!
imma going to sleep because i will have morning class on tomorrow~
hmmm~
I'm so anticipate for coming trip to Penang!! woots!! Yeah Yeah!!

♪♫ you hurt me deeply ♪♫

2011-11-16T04:58:00.000-08:00

This post i really wish to voice out all my unhappiness to you~
i don't care whether you will see this post or not i still want to voice out~
i been crying alone and suffering alone~
i been quiet for whole day long but you seems did nothing wrongs~
i tried to control myself not to think too much~
but the facts telling me that you are such a person inside my heart~
shouldn't be inside my heart because not worth to put it in~

I don't know what's going on between us~
before the holiday we still like buddy~
but why after the holiday we seems like stranger?
What i mean was not face to face~
but is heart to heart~

Seriously i felt disappointed to what you did~
especially the whole Block G juniors made a same T-shirt with their own name~
best part is you get to know this kind of matter but you didn't inform me~
and now the whole Block G juniors wearing the same shirt and left me alone~
I seems the one who get repel by all of you~
if you simply give me a reason i will try to accept~
but you just silent and pretend nothings happened~
can i ask is that repelling me is the main purpose that you all make this T-shirt?
if yes then i should say thank you to all of you to let me realized I'm who is the hell inside you all's heart~

I really hate to do so many things silently behind you~
because you not only can't see it, you really can't feel it at all~
when i get to know those activities that can join into~
the first person appear in my mind is you because we are roommate~
i don't wish to have any secret (except my privacy) with the person that I'll stay for almost 4 months together with~
because its kinda awkward when the secret no longer to become a secret anymore, aren't?
but i don't think the same idea apply in your mind~
because you will only thinking the other persons first instead of me~
am i right?

When i get to know any activities that can collect SIRA i will ask you to join as well~
because i just want to share all benefits together just because we are roommate~
but how about you?
when you got any benefits you will keep quiet and pretend nothing to me~
i don't know how about others~
even the chocolate that you brought from Langkawi you will share with other person instead of me~
Okies, in this case I admit that I'm jealous and it couldn't counts as a point~
but should it happened between a good roommate?
i wonders about that~

When i want to rest, what the hell you did to me?
throw things to me or shout over there and make me awake~
is that normally how you treat your friends with this "special treatment"?
i just smile and laugh to make things over but doesn't mean that i ain't care~
I'm human and i got feelings too~

When i falls asleep in afternoon~
you will purposely wake me up without any reason~
is that something wrong in your mind or other parts?
can you respect yourself as well as to me?

When you reached KL~
YES, I'm the one who promised to fetch you back to home~
the reasons you gave me is because your sister went overseas or outstation~
actually i will fetch you even your sister is not overseas or outstation~
but when i reached your sister's house~
i saw plenty of shirts that just hang up outside the house~
and that's a BIG CRV inside the house too~
oh please, i don't wish to think too much but seems the facts telling me the truth~
and now my question is why you want to cheat me?
any benefits you can get?

My "dearest roommate"~
i used to be proud and dare to show off i have such a perfect roommate in my life~
but i guess now no longer to be dearest~
maybe stranger'est?

And if you saw this post i hope you think carefully why i rather post it here instead of tell you face to face~
because as i said i will respect any person before they respect me~
its mean i want to give you a staircase to walk down and i really hope you can respect yourself first~
Please, do not treat me as a maid~
throw rubbish and do housework is still acceptable~
even cook somethings for you to eat or make something for you to drink is not a big deal for me~
because we are roommate~

but I'm so sorry to tell you that i have my own border line also~
which you already stepped over it~
I'm so sorry to say that I can't face to face to talk to you for a short period because the more i talk to you the more i feel how fake am i~
Please learn to respect peoples in anyway~
this is the only advise i want to gave to you~

No matter how i cry and how people comfort in facebook~
the best way is have someone to talk to me face to face~
Thanks for someone that did this to me~
actually my tears is going to drop down~
but luckily i can hold it~
anyhow, Thank you, Alex~

♪♫ You all are not only the apple of my eye ♪♫

2011-11-05T22:15:00.000-07:00

那些年，我們一起追的女孩 (You Are the Apple of My Eye)
For me, this movie special with friendship~
no matter how they fall in love to a girl~
they did hold their friendship nicely until the end~
which i super duper envy and jealous with that~
and keep on thinking whether i got this fate to have this part in my life or not?
but, I feel so happy that you all accompanied me for this movie~
another nice footsteps before i re-enter back UUM after BBQ gathering~

Sincerely, i would like to thanks someone that helps a lot for succeed this gathering~
Mr. Valen Cheng~
Thanks for your willingness and kindness for help us booking movies tickets~
especially paid advance for us~
such a big amount of people going actually cost you a lot at first~
really thanks you and really appreciate what you did~
and i also feel sorry for HuiYee cause we couldn't eat with you~
next gathering must come and we treat you for a cup of drinks~
i promise you i will treat you!! =)

after movie section we went to "The Gardens" to have our dinner~
the food is super duper expensive~
but i think really worth it because i took a lotssssssSS of photo over there~
P/S: Tag me tag me in facebook!! =D
then another secret gathering appeared! =O

Part 1 completed~
Part 2 stay tuned! =)

♪♫ Different ♪♫

2011-10-28T05:15:00.000-07:00

Today is my second days in KL after back from jungle (UUM)~
i can feel the stress is around me~
the stress is not from my studies, but is from environment~
KL aren't a place as peaceful as in UUM~

firstly, when i sit into my car~
i feel scare and keep sweating without a valid reason~
the cars around my car is like keep rushing and can cut line dangerously~
although i been stayed in KL for past 19 years, but i still felt scare~
the city peoples is so rude and no manner~

secondly, the air in KL make me flu non-stop~
before leaving KL every month i need to eat flu medicine~
but after i reach UUM i didn't touch any flu medicine and i didn't get flu also~
this can proof that the air in UUM is more fresh~
maybe UUM have more trees compare to whole KL? lol

thirdly, i feel so sleepy~
in UUM i sleep after 2am and wake up at 8am i can't feel tired~
but in KL i slept 8 to 10 hours i still feel sleepy~
maybe i can say that the bed in my room is more comfortable?
or in UUM i used to sleep during lecture class? lol

that's more and more different between city and jungles~
but for me, i would more prefer jungle instead of city~
because the stress that occur without reason is killing me silently~
(maybe for first few months i will think like that only) lol
my gosh!!!
what's going on with me??
i don't want to become a jungle-man!!
i very fashion one lor!! XD

♪♫ Back to Hometown ♪♫

2011-10-27T11:44:00.000-07:00

Finally its my turns to back to hometown~
since young i always wondering how's the feeling of going back to hometown~
because during festival or holiday my friends or relative all will back to hometown~
which i didn't have any relative stay at others state that allow me to visit to~
and now its my turns to have the own experience of it~

guess what?
i have is a very complicated mood now~
because i will miss 2 places at a same time~
maybe i can say that UUM infected me a lots?
or in a nicer way i actually miss all my course-mate and my eon-mate?
no joke and its sincerely from my heart~

now i felt not used to it with the silent night~
maybe i used to stay in my DPP that have a lots of senior or eon-mate that like to make noise in late night~
and of course i know that is the best part of my uni's life~
further more, i miss my roommate's voice that used to wake me up when i fall asleep~
although the skill and the way he sing is really disgusting which i not really like at first~
but now i quite enjoy it (am i weirdos?) lol

i found out that during this 2 months~
KL really changed a lots~
especially my housing areas~
the forest and the trees that i used to see every day was cut down~
and i wonder that January when i back to my home again~
will it changed to the places that i totally cannot remember at all?

and just having "yam cha" section with my form 6's classmate~
and all the comment that they say to me is i look slimmer and darker~
the comment is just exactly same with what my parent and sister said to me~
sincerely, i didn't look slim but is fatter~
but i admit that i really look dark, and i can see the different thru my hand~
should i be proud of it?

ok ok ok!!
i gonna stop blogging now due to few reasons as list in below~
1. facebook comment that i need to reply~
2. my assignment haven't start at all~
3. i haven't start to revise my mid term exam~
4. MY BED is calling me!! =D

good night to all stalker that stalker'ing me right now~
you should know who i say to~ XD

♪♫ I'm tired of ♪♫

2011-10-20T18:40:00.000-07:00

Seems,
I'm the one who only care about our group assignment~

Because,
I'm the one who keep on do this and that~
I'm the one who keep on sacrifice my sleeping time to edit assignment~
I'm the one who didn't even bother about my exam and do our assignment~
I'm the one who keep remind your own job and end up i doing back alone~
I'm the one who used up to 20+ hours to edit the assignment~

I'm kinda tired with this kind of lifestyle~
doing things alone but whole team get the benefits~
would you feel fair for me?
wouldn't you feel sorry or guilty to me?
if yes why i can't feel anythings?
i just felt you all feel more relief then me once i finished that assignment~

Peoples say choosing right team-mate is more easier to complete your task~
Yes, no doubt and I'm totally agreed with this statement~
but i need to highlight that right team-mate doesn't mean that its your close friends~
i got close friends together as a team with me~ so what?
It seem that i can't get any different with other strangers work as a team~
no connection, no communication and most important is no team spirit~

I understand that some of us must have some sacrifice~
but mine one seems over sacrifice myself~
if I'm purposely do it over time you can scold me~
i bet that you can't even find a reasonable reason to shoot at me~
i said need this on this time, you give me few days after that~
and end up i do it myself and the output is better then yours~
and many many things more~
I'm kinda tired of this kind of stressful lifestyle~

You feel tired you can purposely doing it slowly and say you sleep at what what what time~
how about me?
for last few week i almost everyday sleep at 4 something and awake at 8 something~
am i a robot that no need to sleep?
you say you tired and you can back to sleep how about me?
I'm totally disappointed with our team spirit~

A last little corner that i want to share out~
when i saw other groups doing their assignment together~
i'm really envy them have a such good team spirit~
although their product might not better then mine~
but they win the process~
which i was looking for it but i failed to have it~

Tonight is going to be a tough night for me to sleep~
Yes, I'm Emo back right now~
which i don't want to have it~

♪♫ Confused ♪♫

2011-10-13T09:31:00.000-07:00

As i mentioned last time~

we can easily guess what people want but we can't successfully guess what people think~

i always wondering that why the relationship between human and human is so complicated and can't even have a good solution?

aren't all this question can be solved when we are growing up?

Today i just get to know that actually that's many things had happened around but just i don't know about it~

of course this is not because of my personal problem~

but maybe is "their" personal problem?

i knew some friends that i "expected" we can be good friend but who know the facts let me realized that we couldn't be a good friend as i thought early~

sincerely i had a bit disappointed with this~

not because of i did something that too over and made this situation happened~

i don't even do a single thing that make things complicated~

just, maybe we have no fate?

currently I'm mentally tired and physically tired with things around me~

because it should be a easy and solvable but all complicating it~

i don't know it is good or not good for me~

but definitely things that made me feel tired i will try to avoid it~

because i need a simple lifestyle~

as simple as easy as i want~

i need to learn to be more independence no matter what~

i know i can do it!! =)

♪♫ Respectation ♪♫

2011-09-19T23:58:00.000-07:00

Respect people before you want peoples to respect you!

Actually I ain't emphasize to talk bad about someone~
Is a simple moral values that i think every peoples know about that~
but too bad someone didn't know about that~
and yet that someone really made me feel hate to him~
yes, no doubt~
its the person that can have the closest distance with me recently~

no matter how you look like~
how you wear like~
how your face is~
how your result is~
i DON'T CARE!
because i believe that educated personal values should stick with every persons~
and those who have educated personal values only qualified to let us respect with~
but thanks you for letting me know that it have an exception for you~

"do not turn up the volume of speaker during late night"
i guess student that in primary school would know about that~
i feel shame that you don't know and you can qualified to become a university student~
i already let you know that I WANT TO SLEEP!!
and i even tell you that I WANT TO SLEEP, CAN YOU LOWER DOWN THE VOLUME?
but what the hell respond you gave me?
pretend nothing and just say never mind?

i know that you like to listen songs~
is just exactly same as me~
but please respect people can or not?
i not 9am like that went to bed to sleep~
but the clock is almost 1am already~
oh gosh!!
you though everyone like your songs so much?

I not scolding you in front of you not because i scare~
is because i respect you are the university student which full with educated values~
please!!
respect peoples as you respecting yourself~
because it shows how you been educated as well!!!

♪♫ Lesson Learned ♪♫

2011-09-17T10:10:00.000-07:00

well well well~
when i get into local university~
i think i blamed a lot of peoples~
lecture, friends and many things as well as roommate~
those who close up with me should know about that~
and i did post on previous post as well~

in my personal opinion and for those who knows me well~
they knows that I'm those person that have no secret~
if you ask me anythings~
i can answer you honestly everything~
that's why many peoples can know my things easily~
except those very super privacy stuff and i won't even give a damn~

and as above topic~
i learned not to be so stubborn in any situations~
especially facing those peoples that might helps me in future~
and I'm super duper agree with one of the senior that told me~
"those who can stay with you not we these seniors, but is your sem-mate"~
then only i realized that i can live alone~
but this journey gonna be a tough one~
and it will only let me suffering alone~

i know how scary is the life that without any friends~
i know how lonely is the life that without any friends~
i know how hard is the life that without any friends~
i know how suffer is the life that without any friends~
because i did [pass through all these is my lifetime~

and now i need try to think wisely everything that i going to do~
all the things i do i MUST think carefully~
not even twice or third~
but must think what is the effect after the decision made~
so that i won't let peoples got chances to hate or put the blame on me~
i need to protect myself~

before that i admit that i actually planning to friends with seniors only~
because they really treat me very well and really look good after me~
especially that gangs of seniors that just stay beside my dorm~
what i need and what i don't know~
they was ready to help me~
something that they don't know they will help me ask other peoples to help me~
and i really feel proud that i have all these seniors~

and sadly to say that when i think back my batch~
i feel i repel by them because of certain reasons~
maybe because of i used to too sensitive?
but i deeply believe that my six-sense would never cheat me~
but this not going to let me discuss anymore~
and i psycho myself that everything is just a dream~
after i awake there will be no more nightmare in my life~

wei keong!!
stop dreaming anymore~
those sad things will only block you to keep moving on~
you should do whatsoever that can make you keep moving on~
but no keep moving down!!
i know you can do it~
GAMBATEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*psycho psycho psycho*

♪♫ I cried ♪♫

2011-09-15T07:44:00.000-07:00

I can't believe that i'm so weak~
i thought i would never cry again after that incident~
but i did on the day before yesterday~
same problem again~
i hate myself for being so cares about how peoples feel~

i remember actually i was planning to ask one of my senior about the course~
i still keep on complain about the course that i taking is all in Malay language~
for example, mathematics that i studied for 7 years in English suddenly need to change back to Malay~
and one of my lecture didn't even know how to speak English or Malay~
only knew how to speak Bahasa Indonesia~
i wondering how possible UUM can hired this kind of lecture to teach~
bla bla bla~~~

i tell my senior that i feel so stress because of my friends~
i tell my senior A to Z about my uni's life~
as well as what i been gone through that few past days~
suddenly my tears drop down non-stop~
its in the bus that on the way back to my hostel~
peoples that in the bus i guess they can see i'm crying~

i feel so stress because of friends that keep on putting pressure on me~
keep on ask me to help them do something while i still haven't settle my things~
i feel like i was tied by my friends and i can't even breath for that few days~
i don't have any freedom to do my things~
as same as when i going for the talks they can just ask me to go to do somethings for them while they not going because of "non-sense"~

besides that~
i thought i can be very friend with my roommate but the situation tells me its not~
why do i say so?
my roommate seems wasn't like to stay at room~
keep on go here and there~
you know? he willing to go to down there to wait for the others newbies in stead of me this roommate~
i can feel something wrong between us but i dare not to ask why~
and i just can keep inside my heart and still need to pretend like nothing happened~
maybe i'm too sensitive?

i faced so so so many trouble in my university actually~
but i dare not to share out thru my facebook and just can write all the things here~
the reasons is to avoid my family knows about this and worry about me~
so with this, they can only think that i live in a health and happy environment~
but the fact, you know i know will do~

shhhhhhhhhh......
this will be a secret between me and you~
remember don't tell anyone~
thanks~ =)

♪♫ Begining of Uni's life ♪♫

2011-09-12T09:10:00.000-07:00

First ever post that i write in UUM~
i saw my friends that study in others University seem very enjoy their life~
of course i know that orientation week is really torturing and suffering~
but overall i guess they will have more systematic then mine~

my one is really totally reverse with what i thought~
i take Bachelor of Economics (Hons) in UUM~
but seems only the names written in English version~
but the subject that inside the course is TOTALLY not with Bahasa Malaysia (BM).
i expected its not fully in BI but i thought got one or two can teach in English~
but well, all is teach in BM~
the funniest is lecture that DO NOT KNOW how to speak BM and BI can become our lecture~
aren't weird enough?
some more teaching us Social Science with Bahasa Indonesia!
how possible Malaysian knows that language?
yet he still can become our lecture~

another things that i not satisfy with is the system~
they use the system is computerize all the homework or anything will be inform thru the website~
well, UUM provided us matriks number that cannot access internet~
never mind, yet those teacher say all books you need to buy or note i will give you after your class thru the website~
i wondering how can us know the note in website?
and did them aspect us to study our final exam in laptop but no books?
its super not easy for us to study in laptop!!

the time table fixed like mad person~
after ended a class never give student any extra time to walk to others DK~
some more the distance not just class that just beside~
but is like you need to walk from SMK Cochrane to JJ maluri~
we didn't even have 1 second to walk to that side~

and i wondering how good is their computer system is~
all just want online, online and online~
yet the line is super slow~
and after we add/drop a course and the form is pass to the selected department~
some got it and some can't got it~
and we didn't even get a notice that shows that our request had been rejected~

some of the class even have the study class already~
how possible we can join the class once the result we can't even knows?
UUM ahh, UUM!!
i seriously solute you to the MAX!!
you did something that i never been through my life~
and yet you still can named yourself as "The Eminent Management University~
i really got nothing to say~~

ciaoz!!
tomorrow still got class!!
good night all! =)

♪♫ Special Comments ♪♫

2011-09-04T08:16:00.000-07:00

This is the wall post that I'm going to post on my Facebook later~
but of course priority is on my blogger~
because its my blogger!! lol

*Universiti Malaya*
@KaiJie@
i know that today is your first day in your Uni~
hope nothing's goes wrong with you~
i know you taking law as your course~
and this course need to use brain a lot to memorize~
drink more brands to help you improve your thinking skills~
Good Luck~

*Universiti Sains Malaysia*
@KaiYang+Ida+Alison+YingMay@
i know 4 of you will start moving to Penang on tomorrow~
have a safety journey to Penang yea~
All the best in your Uni's life~
must keep in contact with our UUM's A1 as we stay very close~
don't only eat eat eat and play play play until forget to study~
Good Luck~

*Unversiti Putra Malaysia*
@Sindy+XinMien@
Pity and Envy both of you no need to travel to so far to study~
but remember must study well and rest well~
most important is ENJOY well~
no worries, we will look for you after we back to KL~!
Good Luck

*Universiti Malaysia Sabah*
@yiling@
super pity you are alone to fly to Sabah to study~
but respect you willing to go also!
take care yourself over there~
face any problem remember look for us to helps~
enjoy your journey in airplane!
Good Luck~

*University Utara Malaysia*
@kamfoo+JY+PuiYin+Limin+QianRong+Snowiie aka Christy@
we got the fate to become uni-mate again~
i can't wait to see you all at UUM~
must take care yourself no matter what~
although we in middle of nothing~
but most important we got each other to talk together!
Enjoy the orientation and IF got time please call and we hang out together~
but must in a safety way~
remember double check so that you won't left anything!
Good Luck~

@MunWai+MichealHan@
i know you both thru FB~
soon i believe we can be good uni-mate~
all the best you both of you!
Good Luck~

*Taman Sri Aman*
@my parent+my sister@
you all must take care yourself well during this 3 years~
i know i will going back every semester break~
but also must take care and don't over work or over stress~
especially my sister!
now you are the only one who can help me to take care both of them~
anything please talk in a nice way, don't shout or scold~
control yourself and i deeply believe that you can do it~
anything just drop me a call~
Good Luck~

I gonna miss you all so badly!
really! =')

♪♫ last 2 days ♪♫

2011-09-04T06:13:00.000-07:00

Still got 2 more days and i will be leaving KL and heading to Kedah~
i will going to Kedah because to continue my study at UUM~
its mean Universiti Utara Malaysia~
and i got Bachelor of Economics (Hons) in UUM~
i know its far enough for me to go to Kedah to study~
but its a new experience for me also~

for me~
i will definitely miss the moment together with all my friends and family~
no matter in fitness first, form 6 or anywhere~
besides that~
i will super miss my family that i used to see them everyday~
but now its time for me to learn to be more independence~

well~
i already packed all my things that i'm going to bring to UUM~
i can say that i almost moved 80% of all my daily stuff to UUM~
the reasons not because i still very depends on my things~
i can move to that side with empty hand but i don't want~
because i need to save money and don't want to waste my parent money~
i know i got PTPTN loan for daily use~
but i still wish to save more money and its not a excuse~

This is overall the things that i'll bring

pillow + hanger + extention + ...

FOOD! i need a lots of foodss

the bags that have all my important stuff

1 box of formal shirts and 1 box of normal shirts

phiewwww!!
i still haven't pack my laptop and others more important things~
one thing that may surprised you~
i will be driving My-vi to Kedah~
how possible i can put all the things in?
I'm wondering~ =.=

♪♫ Bad Luck ♪♫

2011-08-29T00:49:00.000-07:00

Oh My God, Oh My Gosh!!
i can't believe that i will have such bad luck in my life~
actually i was preparing all my uni stuff now~
because i just have 7 more days to go~
after that i will be leaving KL for a long period~

i just brought my laptop for about 2 weeks ago~
people said new things must be a good things~
how come my one will be reversed?
totally not the same!!!

i still remember i brought this laptop on 20th of August~
and after i brought it i was waiting for my friend to help me install something~
after installed, because the microsoft we need to purchase a license only can be used~
then i ask a computer technician to help me install a microsoft version 2007~
and change the antivirus as the previous one i don't know how 2 use~

actually after my frined help me to install and do something~
my laptop is a bit wrong went wrong already~
because it will like hanging or keep on run all the settings itself~
after the computer technician help me to do all the things~
it going worst as it will turn off itself and even will change my desktop background itself~
what the fcuk right?

i used RM2110 to buy this laptop~
its not a small amount for me!!
how come so many things will happened??
i wonder when this kind of back luck can be leave me~
please! stay away from me!!

Opps!!!
i still have all my shirts, pants, formals, water cooker, iron, books, stationary and bla bla bla that haven't pack!!
i have no time now!!
God!! please help me!!

♪♫ sleepless night ♪♫

2011-08-19T14:20:00.000-07:00

Suppose it will be a sweet night for me~
but just a second of time it became a nightmare for me, my family~
i don't know how this could be happened~
i thought think kind of things only will appear in drama~
but never thought it will comes to me also~

When we went out for dinner~
suddenly you feel suffering because you said your stomach pain and make you feel like almost want faint~
then after a while, you back to normal~
and seriously i thought just like headache or what~
not serious at all~

but when we reached home~
same things happened again~
then we put you aside and let you sleep at the sofa~
put some medicated oil and massage your leg and head~
i thought have nothing happen~
but then how come when you awake you ask those weird question?

it really scared us~
oh please!
i hope nothing will happen when you back~
please become back a normal person as usual~
*damn headache*

♪♫ 那些年♪♫

2011-08-16T18:37:00.000-07:00

又是一个苦涩难眠的夜晚~
我的脑袋反反复复不断地想着你~
回想着我们过去的点点滴滴~
其实我们的故事没有童话般的美好~
也没有《下一站，幸福》般的凄惨~
可是每当回想过去足以让我泪流满面~
不伦时间过了多久都那么刻骨铭心~
都不曾改变~

认识你的时间说长其实并不长，说短也不短~
就从看见你的第一眼开始~
莫名的感觉让我不自禁的对你留着深刻的印象~
你没有任何大动作，任何特意的装扮来显示自己~
但我总可以轻易的在人群中看到你的身影~
而你的身材也没有摸特儿般的吸引~
可是那种感觉就很自然而然的能让我看见你~
我，真的被你迷住了~

后来我们正式认识了彼此~
也有了彼此的联络号码~
面子书也加了彼此为好友~
回想起来真的不记得是谁那么大胆先踏出那一步~
但也要感谢那一步~
要不是那一步~
我们想我们的关系也不会迈向前进得那么多~

后来我们开始无所不谈~
就好像我今天做了些什么我会向你报道~
同样的你做了些什么也会向我报到~
我们的话题也没有因为性别的关系而逐渐减少~
依然大方的有说有笑，无所不谈~
我想我们的关系没有只是朋友那么简单吧~

你的出现不仅如此~
还改变了我生活~
我开始变得更了解我对我自己嗜好的要求~
我也会为了我的嗜好而努力让自己变得更强~
同时也变得更有决心去实现多年的梦想~
可以比想象中的还要多~
我想你有了可以印象我的能力~

每当我情绪低落的时候~
总会盼望你能在我的身边陪伴着我~
借我那温柔的肩膀靠一下~
借出你的耳朵让我倾诉~
我，生活开始不能没有你~

如此说明~
我想说我应该喜欢上你了吧~
但却迟迟不敢对你说出口~
怕爱就像是愚人的国度~
不能自拔，不能退出~
也都回不去最初的美好~
但绝大部分是被上一次的分手而没信心~
我可以感觉得出你也是喜欢我的~
我们俩就好像彼此暗恋着对方~
就只差下一步~

可是那一步来领之前~
我们的关系就好像瞬间跌入谷底~
及冷漠，又黑暗~
完全像是不认识对方似的~
就连再简单不过的“哈喽”和“拜拜”都没有~
更何况是寸步难行的下一步？

但事到如今~
也只有那张独一无二的照片可以微弱的链接起我们的关系~
我们的故事曾美丽，但还是不满足~
回想起我一步一步自我陷入~
究竟我应改是笑？还是哭？

其实我真的好想告诉你~
告诉你我并没有忘记~
那天晚上满天星星~
平行时空下的约定~
只是我没有时间赴约~
若可以再一次相遇~
我会紧紧抱著你不放开~
因为现在回首我才发现~
这世界滴滴点点全部都是你~
都是为着你环绕~

♥ 我爱你 ♥
真的很爱很爱你~
你知道吗？
你听到吗？

♪♫ 16/08/2011 ♪♫

2011-08-16T03:42:00.000-07:00

Actually planned not to going out today~
because i need to clean my room as my room was boomed by myself~
too messy and too many useless things~
can you imagine the room that didn't clean for 7 month?
definitely is messy then what you thought in your mind~

But my plan was failed~
because i went out to Bukit Bintang areas to settle my Uni things~
but end up with going to shopping~
i brought 2 ties and 2 singlets in total~
but spend not more then RM50 because 2 ties only cost me RM10~
i save a lot~

As i promised myself that i want to clean my room~
i will clean my room on tomorrow~
after that i will pack all my things into box because i still left 20 days to go~
WHAT??
ONLY 20 DAYS more to go!!
i gonna be a busy man~
nope! is CRAZY man!!

♪♫ Last Day ♪♫

2011-08-15T06:19:00.000-07:00

Finally its my last day in fitness first~
seriously i can feel the relax~
but yet i would like to say i miss that place a lot~
although its full of argument between member and staff~
as well as staff and staff~
but all the footsteps are really meaningful~

i still can remember when i first day in the club~
i just like a small baby~
i knows nothing and just can follows order~
i not dare to speak with member and even answering phone calls~
i just always fold and fold and fold all the towels~
and most important i got complain by someone about my Speaking!
i even worst then what you thought~

but then now i can handled some cases that already 1 years plus haven't solve~
i can stay at counter alone for a shift~
i can helps to do others department works~
i can be a personal assistant to all the "manager"~
and maybe more then what i wrote~

i was proud to say that i learned many things during this 7 months~
i improved my English a lot especially in speaking~
i learned to be more independent~
i learned to do multitask in same time~
and maybe more then what i realized~

sometimes i was over also~
i did argued with member until i pissed off and walk away~
i overtime until someone call me go back~
i throw things/scold people in front of member~
and i did many things that impossible for me as well~

7 months is not a short period to gone through~
i happy that i got you all during this 7 months~
to make my life more colourful and wonderful~
i will remember always, ALWAYS!! =)

♪♫ Frustrated ♪♫

2011-07-20T10:12:00.000-07:00

Currently i was in a super bad mood~
actually it should be a very good day for me~
but totally ruined by some fucking ass in the morning~
serious shit~
i never angry such a bitch ass for so long time~

what i never reply you, answer your calls and those bullshit~
its not what i want okies?
because i need to work~
didn't pick up your calls is normal case~
no need to become a issue to shoot me back if you don't want tell me~

further more I'm just your working staff~
not even your close friends~
why i need to report myself to you every times?
i don't think that is a MUST for you since you get married~
and most important is you are a MALE!!

I told you before if got anythings about that event you can drop down on my FB inbox because i will always go there to check my things instead of my phone inbox~
and working time i can't really take out my phone to answer your calls~
why MUST you need to call me only can let me know?
thru FB cannot clearly to tell me what you want?
it that very hard for you?
why i don't think so?

STOP disturbing my life!!!
and i swear i will get rid of you in my life!!!
please DIE FAR FAR!!

♪♫ I Need A Doctor ♪♫

2011-07-13T07:00:00.000-07:00

As above tittle~
seriously i need a doctor now~
so many things happened on me~
as well as in my home~
what the hell is going on?

Club i got my own things to annoy with~
because many things happened inside club~
from a normal FOH until a CGM~
what the hell~
i only charge one times but then how come the bank will charge her twice?
and yet this member come to scold me back?
some more when i called to Maybank to ask for detail~
the keep on say "i'm not in charge with this, i pass you to other station"~
as i knew only got 3 number how come will need to transfer so many times?
and after transfer 5 times i still can't get back my answer~
what the hell is the bank going on?
really have no staff can get to know about that?
please improve ok?

family matter~
again and again and again~
all the same things that already argued before why need to take back and argue again?
nothing surprised me but its damn annoying~
Oh My Gosh!!!
As a Men can you be passion and don't keep on make trouble?
damn pissed off!!!

Personal Matter~
This Friday we will know whether our effort worth it or not~
because we will get to know whether can get into local uni or not~
i hope that i can get my favourite University which is UM~
and my favourite subject which is Economic~
i wish i could get it~
and i'm damn nervous now!!

I NEED A DOCTOR!!!
I NEED A DOCTOR!!!
I NEED A DOCTOR!!!
I NEED A DOCTOR!!!
I NEED A DOCTOR!!!

♪♫ Clubbing/Working ♪♫

2011-07-09T01:36:00.000-07:00

This is the first time i went to club~
not because i purposely want to go to clubbing but is because of work~
and oh please~!!!
i went to club not doing those unlawful job~
please don't misunderstanding~ =.=

And i guess this would be my best experience that i ever had~
i became a Club's DJ~
serious no joke~
i became a partner of the Club's DJ~
one is named "Cash" and another i forget his name~
but both of them really damn nice guy!
and we together at up stage to play those HIGH songs~
and rundown all the shows~

Besides that~
some more before the shows start i have to brief MC of the day~
which is one of the 8TV host named "Dylon 梁佑诚"~
but secretly i not really like his characteristic~
seems so LC and not really can remember what is the schedule~
suppose should be A first but he say B first~
then make me nearly put wrong things in the shows~
some more not only once~
phiewwwwwww~

and its my pleasure to meet up with those formal artist~
like singer from France, Malaysia~
and those Misses Malaysia and etc~

I cannot deny that i was super scare when i was up to the stage~
all the crowd is in front of me~
and modal is in front of another stage~
and many spot light shoot at me~
i feel like I'm on the way to be a superstar!! =D

*picture will be upload after i got it, stay tuned*

♪♫ Marathon Fever ♪♫

2011-07-03T08:11:00.000-07:00

Since i started to work at Fitness First~
i feel like i like to join those sports activities~
for example Marathon, Aerobic classes and etc... ~
and Marathon is my favourite activities~
i feel like want to join all Marathon~
but just timing problem~

i was planning to join the upcoming marathon~
by McDonald, Men's Health and Adidas King of The Road~
McDonald i confirm will join~
Men's Health confirm not to join course registration already closed~
but the Adidas's KOTR still struggling~
because the event is at Sunway and i need to go there early in the morning~
some more if i got local Uni mean i couldn't join as well~!!
so complicated~!!!

suddenly have feel like want to join all run~
is that just because of i working at fitness first~
or i really fall in love with this? =.=

♪♫ On Diet ♪♫

2011-07-01T08:03:00.000-07:00

Yes! Definitely you didn't see wrongly~
i was on diet right now~
but i was on diet in a proper way~
Breakfast, lunch and dinner as usual~
just started to exercise frequently~

Today i tried Body Pump class and RPM class~
This was my second time to enter Body Pump class~
the previous class is about 2 or 3 months ago~
so i TOTALLY forget all the steps~
after the class~
one auntie come in front of me and tell me
"you TOTALLY do it in wrong way, should be like this..."~

i was like Oh My Gosh!!!
no wonder instructor say "you will fell the pain" but i can't feel anything~
such a big joke~
that mean the class that i attended was like wasted~
but anyhow~
thanks to those who teach me in right way~

First time attend RPM class~
actually RPM is a cycling class~
looks easy but super tough~
my sweat drop and drop and drop, never stop~
you will definitely feel like your leg is going to break after the class~
but luckily someone that i knew sit beside me and show me in the right way~
specially wanna thank Hayley How at here! =D

i didn't go to measure my weight actually~
but i feel like i lose my weight again this time~
course i really can feel i was thinner then last time~
but~
just A BIT only!!

♪♫ F'ker ♪♫

2011-06-24T05:13:00.000-07:00

What the hell is going on?
i never though you will treat me like this~
you as a manager!!!
no, should be MANAGER of MANAGERs!!
how can you say that kind of things?
seriously i can't forget every single words that voice out from your mouth~
you are shit enough, SHIT enough!!!

I know that we misplaced that paper is our fault~
but no reason that you still create problem instead of try to solve problem right?
i remember that you speak these to me~
"why you still come to work at here? this kind of things also can misplace why you still want to work here?"
your words is sharp and violent~
like a sharp knife push into my heart~
but from now on~
i won't respect you anymore even you are my "BOSS"~

From now on!!
i will not eat that brand of instant noodles anymore~
just because of your name is same with the brand!!
F**ker!!

♪♫ Fire ♪♫

2011-06-06T22:25:00.000-07:00

Fire Fire Fire!!!!!
Help Help Help!!!!!
this is the sound that i heard yesterday night~
some more is about 12.30am~

When i heard this i was preparing my supper~
and i thought was a theft trying to steal things but let people saw that~
i not dare to open my door because i scare the theft will come into my house~
but after that i realized is "FIRE"~
then i open the door and look at the direction that the person pointing at~
the fire is super big~

when we all struggling what can we do~
my neighbour (a Sabahian) but look like gangster~
he claim up to the block and use his hand to break all the glasses~
another hand is holding the block because he is standing up at the 4th floor~
so brave~

another few neighbour are helps to water off the fire~
and the most funny things is my aunty ask me to call to the fireman~
and when i was taking to the fireman about the case thru the phone~
the fire was gone~
and i was suddenly like "oh My Gosh"~
how can i tell the fireman the fire is gone?

I tell the fireman the fire is settle already~
the fireman ask me "so you want us to come not?"
and i ask "no need"~
then we end up the conversation~

around 20 minutes over~
the fireman with the huge car appeared in my area~
i was like " why they will come again"?
but i didn't go through about that because i was super sleepy~
and i fall asleep until today morning!!
phew!!!

p/s: please do not swift on the gas when you planning out to somewhere, its super dangerous!!

♪♫ Surprise ♪♫

2011-05-22T20:33:00.000-07:00

I past a week that was full of surprised~
and some of it is i never thought before~
and i was totally in embarrass status~
and apart of it made me feel scary too~
really OMG!!

For example first time that i ever met in my life~
a guy, no, A MEN!!
he want to take my contact number and going out with me~
what the hell?
am i look like Gay?
or i'm too attractive? -.-

Okies! that's more then enough!! =.=

♪♫ Out Going ♪♫

2011-05-15T08:14:00.000-07:00

I ♥ the Panda post...

♪♫ Speechless ♪♫

2011-05-15T07:04:00.000-07:00

Such a angry day!
so many people not agreed with what i want to do~
in work, in house, even hanging out~
i have no idea what the hell is going on~
bad luck stick to me again?
no please!!

when working~
i already delay the DVD checking list for few days~
not because i purposely don't want to check~
but i have no time to check~
i was frustrated with my "reason" although i know its a fact~
most important is that is not my job scoop~

in house or hanging out~
parent keep on nagging with what i want to do~
not agreed with what i did~
i even don't have the freedom to drive out myself~
i knew its for my own good and for my own safety~
but no reason that i want you all to fetch me all the time right?
since i have my own driving license~

my gosh!!
i trying to control my mood from bursting out!
i know i can do it!!

♪♫ Sensitive ♪♫

2011-05-12T03:07:00.000-07:00

It that just i being too sensitive recently?
but i don't think so because i really can feel that~
serious, no joke~
i feel like i was getting boycourt by the whole team~
although we are a team~
should have team spirit to work together~
but i can't feel the spirit and just can feel they only a team!!

However~
i was only let myself feel it and i didn't try my best to prove it~
if its true, i wondering that what will happen on next~
maybe i will not talk to them?
or maybe i will be alone?
i don't know~~~~~~~

♪♫ Bored ♪♫

2011-05-02T19:32:00.000-07:00

With the accumulative of the days and months~
i found out that i felt bored with my current job~
i understand that the salary and the facilities that provided is good enough~
but still, i wish to get another new job instead of this job~

Why?
i can only tell you i don't know!
because sometimes i feel so relax and happy even its freaking busy~
but sometimes i was super stress even its no member or prospect walk in~
so weird right?
maybe major reason is because of internal relation?
i'm wondering~

Actually i will definitely missing some staff inside if i resign~
Major of Personal Trainer (PT)~
Major of Front Of House (FOH)~
Minor of Membership Consultant (MC)~

I should stop my day dreaming~
because i have to go to work at this place unless new job is better~
Stop blaming and start moving!!!
i know I can do it!!

♪♫ New Experience ♪♫

2011-04-25T00:20:00.000-07:00

Seriously, I was super enjoy every single moment of last week~
because i learned many kind of new experience during that week~

Last week my manager put me in morning shift for whole week~
after my work is just only 3.15pm~
and i decided to stay back and exercise in my club~
because i have to go back together with my mother~
at first i just plan to exercise and didn't thought to join any GX class~
but because the club was in peak hours~
almost all the machine was full of peoples~
that's why i bring out a new idea and have a try for GX's class~

The first GX class that i joined in my life is Body Combat class~
and the instructor is Jason K~
major of reason i will join because i knew Jason~
for sure i won't join a stranger instructor's class~
because its kinda weird, aren't?

Joined second class is Body Pump class~
instructor is also Jason K but added another which is Cheng~
the class that really torturing enough~
but that was really good a class to join to build body muscle~
specially wanted to say thanks Jason and Cheng for teach me a lot~
i really appreciate it!

~the classes that i joined last week~

And in conjunction with "2011 Combat New Entity War"~
Me and Kaiyang helped GX manager for design the wall in studio~
first of all we had no idea with what can do~
but after we know what to do~
the result is 100000 times worst then what we imagined~
and i quickly go buy another colour to recover it~
proud to say that many people comment its very nice~
but i was super moody because its super ugly~
anyway, that was my first time~
its priceless man!!

Ours Product!

♪♫ Support & Understand ♪♫

2011-04-13T22:08:00.000-07:00

I need some support now~
no matter mentally support or physically support~
seriously i need that now~
even a short message~
i might can get the feel~

Since i get sick~
i found out that i was super weak~
i just pretend normal, happy and cheer all the time~
but the truth only i know it myself~

I smile doesn't mean i happy~
i cry doesn't mean i sad~
i pretend stupid doesn't mean i'm stupid~
a fake mask was wear at my face to cover something~
still the same~
the truth only i know it myself~

suddenly fall in love with this song~
丁噹 <明白>
especially the lyric~

我無法控制淚水留下來
莫名的難過是情緒作祟
沒有誰錯誰對
需要安慰不能離開

我只是要你明白
明白我對你的愛
除了你我的愛無可取代

我只是要你明白
明白我對你的愛
沒有人讓我如此的依賴

♪♫ Stupid ♪♫

2011-04-12T21:34:00.000-07:00

Such a huge disappointment to myself~
not only once~
maybe more then twice already~
but i still never change~

i hate this kind of feeling~
especially after been caught~
maybe no one know its me~
or maybe they know its me~
but this kind of feeling really killing me~
guilty~

some more~
seriously i don't like you~
because every time i in shift with you~
trouble sure will came on the next day~
although everyone like you~
but i just don't like~

i wanted to find someone to share my voice that kept long time inside my heart~
but every time seem so silent~
alone~
I'm just being back to alone~

Yes!
Definitely!
I'm Emo now!!!

♪♫ F*ckin Angry ♪♫

2011-04-05T09:33:00.000-07:00

What the hell man!!
what's wrong with all those member today?
all seems purposely come to counter and making trouble~
I freaking hate that you know?
my mood totally ruined!!
even showed black face to all those staff~
I'm so sorry about that~

I most angry with one of the member~
seriously, since i started to work~
he is the one who make me feel angry the most~
let me feel like totally not salute to those member~
even though they are rich, smart or looks good~

He is the one who didn't take care of the towel~
and end up with lost the towel~
Still want to pretend like very lawful person~
one word to you "F*ck you"

P/S : ST = shit member , WK = me
ST :"i lost my towel in changing room"~
WK: "so you have to pay for the lost towel because you lost your towel"~
ST : "why should i pay for the lost towel? i just put at the chair there and go out a while then disappeared."~
WK : "because you have to take care of your towel, if you lost it, mean you have to pay it"~
ST : "is that anything that can proof that i have to pay for the lost towel fees?"
WK : (take out the term and condition paper) "the no.7 showed that you need to pay for the lost towel fees"~
ST : "you know? not i want to lost it, but i just put there and don't know which guy took the towel, its not my false"
WK : "but you have the responsibility to take care of the towel, once it lost, mean you have to pay"~
ST : "alright, then can you show me where i signed to agree to this term and condition? If you can find out the term and condition, i pay, if not, i won't pay for it. Some more when i sign in i didn't sign any form."
WK : "alright, so i will send this case to my manager"

So stupid right?
He is the one didn't take care of the towel but blame to us that shouldn't have lost towel fees.
If like this why we want to change card?
straight away give you towel and you can bring back home~
no need to give back to us~
really such a nonsense~

Another one~
already mention that our club will close at 11pm~
but still want to come at 10.30pm+~
never mind, we let you in~
when the clock reached 11pm~
everyone in the club already go out~
he still at the gym area there and workout~
i go to him and ask "did you know that our club will close at 11pm?"
he answer me "really? now only i know"

such a biggest nonsense in the world~
you are not the first time to notice that club will close at 11pm~
every times we also inform you but you still want to come late and go back late~
you though we no need to go back home?
if not then bring your mother to the club and ask your mother sit at waiting area~
and ask your mother to secretly go inside the club~
when we realize then you say you bring her out and wait~
nonsense!!!

Today is the worst~
After inform him 11pm our club will close~
then he go to changing room and bath~
and we still like normal and calculate all the sales and payment~
after we done all the things, reset and closed the computer~
he tell one of the PT that he lost his key~
wtf, then i go in there and find the spare key~
but can't find that number~

i call and call and call to all manger~
no one answer me~
never mind, luckily at last i found that spare key~
and i tot he will pay for cash~
still want to pay with credit card and say this and that~
make us have to recount back the payment and all the things~
some more made the account that already tally become not tally~
and gonna affect tomorrow account also~
seriously! i damn hate you!!

F'ckin no mood now~
some more in fever status now!!
little advice to you all~
if you have no responsibility to take care of your things~
please don't join anythings~
if you want to join~
please don't complain!!

♪♫ Belated Induction Post ♪♫

2011-04-01T05:46:00.000-07:00

Finally done my induction~
which 5 days in Menara Axis!
and 1 day in Memara Manulife!
although can go back to work~
but i still prefer to go to induction~
totally no stress and enjoy max!

Actually nothing special in this post~
just wanna upload some picture only~
enjoy!

SFOHM "Teacher" - Elle

FOH from KBT (Rubynie)

FOH from 1MK (Aidil)

FOH from MA (Zarul)

March Induction candidates

only FOH group photo

All of us!! ☺

I'm super unsatisfied!!
How come salary for March was so little?
i thought it was fixed?
after i got back my pay slip i will check it!!!
super super disappointed!!

Stay Tuned for further journey~

Keong luv u^^

♪♫ Fitness Induction ♪♫

2011-03-25T06:35:00.000-07:00

Phew!!!
Still got one more day to go~
but luckily exam was finished today~
damn exciting and tension~
don't know whether i can pass or not~

During this induction~
i feel very happy because i knew some new friends over there~
they are so friendly~
even we just know about 5 days~
but we do have lunch and play and chat together~
even did the role play together~
and i damn appreciate the moment we induction together~
it's can consider as "fate"?

I damn miss them right now~
can't wait for Monday for the "Aphelion system" and "fitsync" training~
thinking to bring a camera to Menulife there on Monday~
and take down all the remembrance memories that we have!
Good! just do it!!

Before that~
i have to say congratulation to my one of my friend~
she get all A+ in her SPM~
and seems top student in KL also!
congratulation max max yea~

P/S : Don't forget turn off the light tomorrow yea! Stay Tuned!

♪♫ International Fitness Week ♪♫

2011-03-19T20:18:00.001-07:00

Time flies super fast~
just a blink of eyes, one week had came to last day~
International Fitness Week (IFW) will end after today~
actually i felt quite successful for this event~
many of first visitor can tried their first time in Fitness here~
if they satisfied with Fitness First, they can sign up~
although just minor of that signed up this~
doesn't mean that they don't like, maybe others reason?
but actually it's a good try for all peoples~

Today, there's a event held in Fitness First on 7am~
something like Marathon, venue is around Leisure Mall~
every participants have to run for 5km~
major of staff was involved, of course i'm one of them~
I'm so proud that i only used less then half an hour to complete the whole journey~
some more without any shortcut~

According to the camera record~
I'm the 14th person who reached the final~
although didn't get any prizes or medals~
but i did satisfied with my record~
because I did break my own record~
previous time i might used out 1 hour, but now only half of it~
YEAH !!!

= new staff, Fiona and me =

+ before our journey start, this is the group photo +

☺ Yeah! I finished my journey! ☺

# Exercising #

► Jonathan, me, Wai San, Rocky & Louis ◄

♥ Staff Group photo ♥

☺ Winnie's son, Cute MAX!! ☺

Mood was totally ruined because later still have to work!
Ciaoz!

♪♫ Today (13/03) ♪♫

2011-03-13T05:48:00.000-07:00

When i woke up today~
i saw a message which send by my colleague~
he told me that he will mc today~
which mean i will working alone~
without any support~
cannot toilet, breakfast/lunch~
and i was like O.O!!
nothing else~

I reached club at 6.45am~
and after done all my opening system (out of counter)~
i found out that nobody is coming to open those machine~
and all those member keep asking me whether can go in already not~
i keep on call all those manager but no one pick up~
at least, luckily that fitness manager pick up my call~
but too bad that all those member already go inside the club~

After few minutes, one of the people in charge reached~
although all the problem solved~
but i still very nervous because i'm the only one who stay at counter~
i scare that i cannot handle well and make customer fed up with club~

Phew!!!
Luckily one of the FI colleague help me~
included helping in post the poster inside the studio~
and help me take care of counter when i want to go to toilet~
specially want to say thanks to him!

Suddenly one of the instructor didn't come to teach the class~
full of member stand beside the counter and complain~
one more time lost of control~
luckily GX manager did answer my call and teach me what to do~
feel that i can handle tough situation alone~
not bad yea! =D

i past my day with a lot of challenge~
and i can briefly handle it~
does it consider I'm lucky enough?

♪♫ World ♪♫

2011-03-11T18:51:00.000-08:00

Recently, natural disaster just like a wave~
it will happen in any second of time~
although it had been predicted by some person~
but still cannot solve or defend it~
the only things we can do is wait to see whether they are correct or not~
that's it!

but all the way~
i did really respect Japan this time actually~
8.9 magnitude earthquake had happened~
but so far still haven't hear any serious things from their country~
i know those car had been destroyed~
but ain't human life is the most precious things ever?
they did save human life without any selfish minded~

Let me link back to the Indonesia tsunami~
death more then ten thousand peoples if not mistaken~
they was suffer with food shortage and medical problem~
need helps from whole world~
of course we did help them~
and we should help them also~

but why when the same goes to Japan~
we didn't hear such things from Japan?
maybe later will or will not?
but then, i still very respect Japan~
the way that they solving problem~
respect gao gao!!

click the link below and see the truth!
看日本人如何面对灾难（值得全世界的人学习！）

P/S : this blog post is only about i respect with how the way they solve problem and doesn't mean that i want to betray my country or step others country, please don't misunderstand~

♪♫ Love this Way ♪♫

2011-03-09T23:47:00.000-08:00

Imagine no one is in the house except you alone~

Imagine the food that you like was prepared well on table~

Imagine all your favourite songs playing around you now~

Imagine the air conditioner made temperature stay below 16 celcius~

Imagine your dogs and cats sleep beside you, lie beside you~

Although my house don't have dogs or cats~
Although my house don't have air conditioner~
Although food doesn't prepared well on the table~
but the songs really playing right now~
and i did very enjoy those songs~

Everybody knows i love to sing~
love to listen song especially those emotional songs~
but since i started to work~
I been so long never enjoy this kind of lifestyle~
until today~

you know, the feeling is super duper relax~
especially all my favourite songs is playing continuously~
don't care about the volume~
just switch as loud as i want~
and i follow to sing, shout silently~
oh my gosh!
i found back myself~

♪♫ Long Time Ago ♪♫

2011-03-09T06:18:00.000-08:00

Almost 2 weeks didn't post any blog here~
feel so messy right now~
seems many things want to voice out~
but don't know which should go first~

Recently~
all my blog post is about working experience~
because i'm quite anti-social lately~
not i want to anti-social but i have to anti-social~
*seems so serious* LOL

you see, morning i went to work~
after working go back home have dinner~
after dinner sleep time reached~
where i have extra time to hang out?
just this 3 things repeat and repeat everyday~

when i stepped into "real" social~
i feel quite disappointed actually~
the world aren't as beautiful as we thought~

First :
all the things that you want to do you have to think carefully~
once the word came out from your mouth~
no more excuse and you just have to wait for the consequence~
its either serious or super duper serious only~
maybe your luck is good, then you will be very peaceful~

Second :
you will not know who is good or who is bad~
sometimes, they might be very good in front of you~
but they will also do something bad behind you~
make your life more difficult~
ain't its very stupid and childish?
why need to pretend? any benefits?

Third :
for me, rules is just like a guild~
guiding us so that we won't do something wrong right?
but why have to be so straight~
that's no others turning point that can allow us to turn?
must we follow 100% and not even 99.99999%?

Currently was in a innocent mood~
feel like doing this will get blocked~
doing that will get scolded~
really don't know what should i do actually~

but~
i used to solved it by my own way~
am i consider stubborn?
or have my own style? *hahaha*

♪♫ STPM result ♪♫

2011-02-21T07:08:00.000-08:00

Sorry that post out this post late~
just because of i don't have time to update~
but not others reason~

First of all~
i have to say congratulation to all my classmate~
because have the super duper damn good result~
I'm so happy because I'm included~
although a slightly different with major classmate~
but I still satisfied with my result~
salute! =D

I really have no idea why my result will be like that~
maybe because of i hardworking?
or because of my luck?
anyway, i just hope to get the course that i want~
others is not important for me anymore~

Thank God! =)

♪♫ Solved ♪♫

2011-02-17T21:35:00.000-08:00

God bless that most of the problem had been solved~
no more worry in my heart~
unlawful things was totally not successful to be done~

Actually I super worry about that~
cannot sleep at whole night~
just lie down on the bed~
wake up and fall into sleep again whole night~
cannot sleep well~

Chinese's people said that~
that will be a good day after raining~
it that describing me now?
mood turn better already~

most important is~
sorry for let you guys worry about me~
thanks for all the concern~

♪♫ I cried ♪♫

2011-02-17T08:44:00.000-08:00

I tried to control myself~
do not allow my tears come out easily~
but i failed to do that~
and i did cried in wrong timing~
which its during my working period~

I cry not because want to blame on others people~
but because i can't help anything for my family~
because i have no power to help mummy that used to help me when i was young~
because i was careless and give workmate troubles~
most of it because of previous blog post~

after i cried~
i really feel better~
i tried to cover it and pretend normal~
not to let anyone knows that i was cried~
but failed~

Many people knows about that~
my manager, the club general manager~
they called me to ask me what's going on~
they though i was bull by workmate i think~
but actually i was not happy because of private matter~
sorry for making them misunderstanding~
and thanks for caring~

i really wish to cry out loudly~
not to keep it inside my heart anymore~
its so suffer, so hard~
i really need a pairs of ear that can let me to talk to~
willing to lend me shoulder when i cry~
and understand my situation~

but, all came in wrong timing~

♪♫ Sometimes ♪♫

2011-02-16T21:23:00.000-08:00

Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this~
true indeed~
do you know?
every situation no matter bad or good~
some people might wait a lifetime just for a moment like that~

For those people used to stay in harmony's family~
when a little bit of crush to him/her self~
he/she might feel that God treat him not good~
blame God to give him/her those hard situation~
but do you know how many people stay in the worst situation then you?
for the moment that you faced~
they might waited for a lifetime~
but still cannot get it~

i admit that i used to unsatisfied with my life~
because its nothing can let me satisfy with it~
but now~
i can rarely feel that my family might break soon~
but, i just can't help anything except wait~
or i can say that i didn't appreciate what i have last time?

Few days ago~
my father just involved in a accident~
God bless that he didn't have anything happened~
no injury, no hurt and no nothing~
except the car was totally spoiled~

I though it will be a good thing and able to celebrate~
but the worst situation coming~
foreman persuade my dad to cheat to claim back the insurance~
some more want him to pay 1k to fixed that car~
after claim the insurance and collect money from my father~
foreman can earn so much~
but my dad didn't realize that he might get sue because doing those unlawful things~
just because want to save up few thousand~

My mum said to give that foreman by cheque~
but he just don't want and get mad because of that~
some more scold my mummy~
but he dunno that we have no money~
he though ours money drops from sky~
never think of how hard we work~

my mummy actually suggested him not to as taxi driver anymore~
because what he earn is less that what he pay out~
but, just cannot tell course he won't listen to us~
he rather listen to others people instead of our family suggest~
this kind of family matter~
stay one more day mean suffer one more day, aren't?
so better get rid of it?

now thinking what can i do except wait~
but i still awaiting for the miracle~
miracle that gives us get rid of this suffer situation~
thank God~ =)

p/s: don't tell anyone after you saw this post, thanks!

♪♫ Secret ♪♫

2011-02-15T06:14:00.000-08:00

That's a secret that created by God~
God want us to learn to be tough~

God gave us all the hard situation~
sometimes all the problem comes in once~
maybe God want to test us whether we can handle or not~
if can, maybe i can become GOD also?

Recently~
i really doing exactly like what my manager told me~
all the emotion must put behind~
fake smile is stay with me~

As i put in my FB status~
no one will know what will happen on next second
its true enough to describe human's life~
full of treasure and surprise~
the only thing it either you take it serious or normal~

I'm freaking tired with this kind of lifestyle~
God, can I just want a simple lifestyle?
as normal as a plain bread~
I'm super afraid with surprise lifestyle~
I'm serious~

♪♫ Weekly Conclusion ♪♫

2011-02-12T07:00:00.000-08:00

Mood goes up and down~
Luck also goes up and down~
Money also goes up and down~
Working luck also goes up and down~

Over here~
i just want to mention my working luck only~
if not this page gonna me very very very loooooooooooong~

In previous working experience post~
i wrote what is the problem that comes from the customer and worker~
but this time gonna blame myself~
i did many wrong things in 1 week of time~
not small matter some more~
quite serious you know~

First~
i lost my voice in these 2 days~
cannot answer any calls~
only can take towel to customer or do those job that need not using voice~
actually i feel guilty because what i did not doing my workmate gonna help me to do~
and lost of voice really big trouble~
cannot communicate with peoples~
can you imagine a receptionist or customer service staff without voice~
that's what happen to me right now~

Secondly~
i did this for second times~
key in the sales before get money~
when the resit is printed out~
that people only tell me he want to cut directly from his bank account~
but the sales already key in and recorded in the computer~
gonna write a form to request to cancel the payment~
then i might need to see general manager for careless mistake~

i really can feel the stress over there~
all customer will comes together at about 12pm until 1pm~
counter full of people but computer only got two~
some more 1 computer cannot be used to make payment~
computer will hang all the time~

i told myself to give myself a month to try this out~
if really cannot handle it i will resign and choose others job~
actually i like the environment and position~
can let me learn more~
but the way that this company want us to do~
i hard to accept~

Wei Keong!!
you forget you told them you are good in thinking positively?
now its time to prove it!! =)

♪♫ Happy Belated Birthday Post ♪♫

2011-02-09T06:57:00.000-08:00

First of all~
i want to say thank again and again to those who dropped me wishes on my birthday~
especially those who sent to my mobile phone~
thank you a lot~
you know what i want!

including facebook~
i guess i had received almost 160 wishes~
its super huge amount for me actually~
sorry that i have no time to reply one by one~
and just forward those same message to all of you~

besides that~
finally i can say goodbye to "teen" this word~
no more "teen" this word appear in my life~
what i can do is be more mature~
always solve something with calm and steady~
hope good luck always comes toward me~

♪♫ working experience 1 ♪♫

2011-02-08T01:06:00.000-08:00

Really wish to go to seaside and shout out loudly!!
stress keep on comes to me~
never stop since i started this job~
maybe that is the actual world actually~
scary and afraid accompany me all the time, every second~

From ~~dearest~~ Customer:
1. Complain with auto-payment.
2. Received those weird calls.
3. Don't know that customer talk what (100% UK slang customer)
4. Suddenly 10+ people come in asking us question.
5. Suddenly many customer want pay for membership card.
6. Suddenly many customer want freeze/cancel account.
7. Call to us that say craps things.
8. etccccccccccccccccccccccccccccc.

From ~~kindest~~ workmate:
1. Only busy with own work, never teach new worker what to do.
2. Go out together with others department stuff and left new worker in front of club.
3. Rather use their time to call friends with company phone then reach us.
4. Face black then my black pants.
5. Pen will automatically disappear.
6. no cooperation and communication with each others.
7. etccc.

Today i went to work at morning
and just get a bad news that i will working alone~
because the another stuff OFF for today~
luckily that my manager was came~
she taught me slowly and explain A to Z clearly to me~
i feel more relief and confident with what i can do~
if compare with previous days~
i really know nothing except count and fold towel~

Today i complained by a big boss~
because using market language to answer calls~
not this branch big boss but is the head company boss~
piew!!!
super nervous and really don't understand what he talking about~
seem 100 words per second, super fast~
then i just keep on answering "Sorry", "Pardon"~

So far i learned many new things that could help me in future~
although its really stressful and scary~
but i will give myself a try until end of this month~
if i really cannot accept it~
i might resign my job~
i know the salary is super attractive~
but i prefer peaceful lifestyle~

Stay tune......

♪♫ Happy CNY ♪♫

2011-02-03T09:26:00.000-08:00

Time flies super fast~
Chinese New Year (CNY) reached again~
but I'm kinda surprised that this CNY doesn't give me any CNY feel~
maybe without gathering?
maybe without wishes?
maybe crushed with something gonna happen on next week?
I'm so boring!!!

YES!!
i did went out just now~
went to drink tea with formal school friends~
but sincerely i not really happy with that~
not because of gamble section i lost that RM8~
but is I became a back up plan for others~
i don't like~
its not sincere at all~
i don't like to be a temporary toy!!

OMG!!
today is first day of CNY~
i shouldn't be so angry~
should laugh more!!
muahahahaha!!!!!

lastly~
wish all my friend and of course you have a wonderful CNY~
happy always and "huat" always!!
and please do pray hard for me to get good result in STPM! =D
Happy Chinese New Year~ ♥

♪♫ brankrupt ♪♫

2011-01-30T01:42:00.000-08:00

Oh my gosh!!
recently really bankrupt already~
really no more extra money allow me to spend~
sorry for reject all the event that created~
because i spent over my budget~

first because of Genting trip~
spend out almost RM100 that day~
but i never blame on it~
because i very satisfied with that day~

second because of Chinese New Year~
CNY just around the corner~
spent major part in buying clothes, pants and others~
some more brought few bottle of facial foam~
marvel gel, oil control, whitening and bla bla bla~
all income gone like this~

third because of increasing prices~
prices of food and things increased~
but we can't escape from foods~
that's why i was spent over my budget~
not worth~

help help help~
treat me something to eat and drink~
i need money so badly~

♪♫ Work ♪♫

2011-01-28T07:58:00.000-08:00

Finally i signed the agreement with fitness first~
which mean finally i got the job~
its consider an international company~
actually i'm kinda proud of working inside~
hope everything goes smooth~

i will start my job at Feb 2 (2-2-11)~
feel free please pass through the front door and say "hi" with me~
purposely come in don't need~
hahhaha~
anticipate for that day! =)

♪♫ Genting one day trip ♪♫

2011-01-28T07:15:00.000-08:00

Wooohooooo~
finally got the chances to go to Genting~
planned almost 2 weeks time~
but keep on changing the date and time~
just because of this one suddenly got work~
that one suddenly cannot~
really annoying~

luckily plan still on~
we (me, kaiyang, kamfoo, yingmay, syyiee) 5 persons went to Genting on Jan 25~
early morning about 6.45am went to bukit jalil there but ticket~
and reach Genting about 10am~
because the traffic super jam~

have to admit that we super unlucky~
because we face the serious mist and heavy rain over there~
the mist and rain had make us trapped in the skyway for about 15 minutes i think~
hanging on the halfway of skyway really suck~
the cable car keep on shake because of the strong wind~
scary max!!

after brought the Outdoor theme park ticket~
not really much games allow us to play~
only those babies games~
damn it!!
also because of the mist and strong wind!!
but then i still very satisfied~

lazy typing too much~
conclusion! i did enjoy very much! =D
here comes the photos! =)

♪♫ endless ♪♫

2011-01-23T01:29:00.000-08:00

That will be a endless things to emo with~
No matter where, what, when~
although my smile still appear on my face~
although i just tell you i very tired~
thousand excuses i have made to pretend i have nothing~
but i still cannot cheat myself~
I'm not happy, really not happy~

When you~
saw something alone~
meet something alone~
jealous something alone~
care for something alone~
feel something alone~
hope for something alone~
do all the things alone~
how sad it is~

When you,
saw something that shouldn't see~
met with something that shouldn't meet~
jealous with something that fixed~
care with something that only you caring~
felt for something that gonna hurt yourself~
hope for something that couldn't brings result~
is that fate just joking with you?
let you know something that you want~
but don't let you be the owner that what you want~
how funny it is~

The worst things is the nearest distance~
you just in front of me but i couldn't do anything~
just because we are stranger for each others~
fate allow us to meet up~
but not allow us to know each others~
how cruel it is~

I'm trying to repair my mood~
but too bad another things crush with it~
now the mood getting worst~
no one could understand~
maybe you will tell me "don't think too much"~
but how can i don't think?
i ain't a machine without feelings~

Tried to cheer myself with,
"everything gonna end soon"
"everything will disappear follow with time"
"tomorrow will be another brand new day to go"
but who know i still can't let it down?
i still carrying it forward and hope for better result~

cannot blame on who~
because everything start from my own feeling~
cannot control~
and never stop before~
never stop now~
will not stop forever~~~~

♪♫ Lost ♪♫

2011-01-20T01:51:00.000-08:00

Recently i lost many things~
especially my mood~
money, luck, temper, look, health and etc~
all gone!!
ain't this can proof that i lost many things?

First, money~
one week almost spend RM 50 plus~
i know this consider little~
but can you imagine i stay at home everyday?
where does the money go?
all using to plan something~
phone this people and phone that people~
bankrupt to the max!!

Second, temper~
almost everyday have people let me scold~
not because they are wrong~
but if other reasons~
i have to control my temper before too late~

third, luck~
my luck is the worst~
when i talk about work~
although the general manager and front of house manager have approved me~
but i still can't able to work because i haven't sign the agreement~
not manager not allowed me to sign but is HQ haven't call me to sign~
if i did not sign that agreement~
i might cannot start to work~
when talk about trip~
planned many trip but mostly all unsuccessful~
Taman Pertanian, Genting, YamCha, Langkawi and etc~
left Genting successful made~
some more might only 3 peoples going~
how sad it is~

forth, look and health~
almost every night cannot sleep well, insomnia~
very suffering you know~
some more pimples all pop out from my face~
like a clown~
how dare to walk out ta see people?

Fifth, MOOD!!
never recover also~
although tried my best to control but still failed!!
some more added something new to worry about~
OMG~!!
i really wish to get out of this situation~
help me~!!!!!

水瓶座男人~

2011-01-17T20:54:00.000-08:00

　　
　　
　　水瓶座是十二个星座中最理性、最有独创思想、最客观、最难以预测的男人。
　　
　　水瓶座看起来超然，仿佛是一个心不在焉的教授。他聪明绝顶，有独特的思维，他的大脑里充满了稀奇古怪、让人震惊的思想和主意，你从不见他读书，但是，无论什么问题，他都能够发表让你寡目相观的独到见解，好像他已经站在这个领域的高端。
　　
　　他是一个生活在自己的大脑中的理想主义的生灵，他是个高度理性、客观，他能够从让你想不到的各个不同的角度看待人和事，对待自己他也像是对待一个客观、抽象的物体，而不是一个有血有肉的生灵。当他走上顽固的道路，你就会发现自己在同一个宇宙的星外来客打交道，他能够是世界上最古怪、最难以理解的怪物。
　　
　　水瓶座有强烈的求知欲望，他所追求的知识并不一定帮助他在世俗世界中建立成就。他的功利思想淡泊，追求独立自由，他带着严重的反叛传统权威的思想，不但难以被束缚，还常常过于忽视上司，以至于他出众的才华不能够被利用。他独特、潇洒得让你尊敬，但是他过于脱俗，让你为他的才华惋惜。他的智商超常，他执著地探索人性的秘密，他对于宇宙间未知的事物的兴趣超出了对于现实社会的理解，他的大脑可能真的能够与宇宙间其他的生灵交流？总而言之，他总是对于那些不占世俗主流的知识独有情衷。
　　
　　　　他是个天生的心理学家，他渴望想揭开人们行为的原理，他能够从任何人的身上发现人类共性的模式，他超级发达的大脑永不停息地思索、探寻、分析、总结。他最大的乐趣是钻进别人头脑，看他们在想什么，为什么这样想，新颖的经历让他愉快，与众不同的事物能激起他的兴趣，如果有可能，他甚至会和你换性别。
　　
　　　　水瓶座是十二个座中真正的内心潇洒、坦荡、无私无畏、让人敬重的男人。他的内心藏着慈善的使命，他是博爱的思想的源泉，他反对种族歧视、性别歧视、年龄歧视、动物歧视等等，他对于整个人类、社会和其他生灵的关心比对自己的还更有兴趣。他没有高低贵贱的世俗概念，他能够把任何阶层的人都当成自己的朋友。他喜欢形形色色的、三教九流的各种不同的奇人怪物，他能够客观地看到每个人的闪光点，他能够公正地看待每个人的相对价值。
　　
　　　　虽然他感情淡然，却非常珍视友谊，他是个难得的好朋友，他没有太多的私心和个人小算盘，水瓶座还可能为了集体、人类的利益牺牲自己。他是每一个人的朋友，但却很难有人真正地走进他的世界，既使与你在爱情的世界中，他也常常身置境外，好象一个观众在观赏一些令他陶醉的境面。
　　
　　　　水瓶座很难走进现实主义的群体，他更关心生活应该是什么样，而不是生活现在是什么样。他常常把生活理论化，他的理想在现实社会中常常被击得粉碎，但是，他依然顽固不化。正是他们高尚的理想，造就了林肯、罗斯福这样的政治家。
　　
　　尽管他看起来不是一个强权、霸道、充满了支配欲望的人，有时他甚至还很温顺，但是这是最古怪、最难以预测的生灵，他总能够让你大吃一惊。他如此地合群、友好，他却不畏惧孤独，他还强烈地需要、寻求属于一个人的时光，孤独让他和宇宙间奇妙的生灵交流，让他获取了各种正常的大脑不能产生的稀奇古怪的思想，正如爱迪生有了用身体蜉小鸡、达尔文想到人是由猿人变化而来的一样。
　　
　　　　你永远猜不透水瓶座，他就像是在这个世界的局外人，你常常在不属于他的位置上发现他，他属于人类的每一个人，他却不属于任何人。
　　
　　爱上一个水瓶座男人不知道是你的幸福还是不幸，反正你比其他女人多了更多自由，多了更多换男友的自由与选择，可是水瓶男人的热情，永远只比冰点再高一点，他的理智让他无法顺利的点燃热情，在疯狂爱上你的一刹那，他仍然想著，这样不太合逻辑吧！天知道！水瓶座男人所做的事情，有哪一件是合逻辑的。
　　
　　这个号称是全世界最天才最理智的星座，往往是女人的公敌，他们聪明地操纵着自己所能够用的一切，让你对他爱之入骨却又恨的牙痒痒，他的理智让你著迷，他说的话都是道理你不得不信，他没有狮子的专制、白羊的冲动、天秤双鱼的优柔寡断、巨蟹的退缩，但是、但是这么好的男人却往往只爱自己，对其他人永远只有三分钟的热度，那些愿意跟你在一起一辈子的水瓶座，大概是贪图你能够替他做一辈子的免费菲佣才勉强的首肯，说穿了，这样的男人眼底心底永远只有自己。
　　
　　这样的男人常说一句话，“我不是故意的”，然后摆出一副无辜的脸孔，你知道为什么吗？当然是为了让你上钩，然后让你主动，让你对你所做的一切负责，水瓶座男人总是成熟又理性的说出一句至理名言“人得为自己所做的事情负责”。於是他们奸诈的什么都不做，聪明的让你去为全部的事情负责，至於他们自己能够负起的责任少的可怜。
　　
　　　　水瓶座男人，对於爱情这回事很容易动心、很容易分心、很容易花心、却不容易变心，属於固定星座的他们花心的姿态像是有根牢牢的附著在地上的大树，用枝干去拓展地盘，如果你是他的根，稍微可以放心，他还是会牢牢抓住不放的，如果很不幸的发现你只是其中之一的枝干，我劝你还是回头是岸，要让水瓶座的男人爱上你，除了要够聪明之外，还要够爱自己，一哭二闹三上吊的女人在他们眼中是作贱自己，对他们来说是谢谢再联络，往往让水瓶座男人偷偷思念个几十年的女人，是当初不把他放在眼里来去自若的女人。
　　
　　　　水瓶座会把你当成一个同性的朋友，他会毫无顾虑地与你谈论他过去的女朋友，不是他对老情人难以忘怀，而是他的大脑中不会理解女人的嫉妒是什么东西。他常常诚实地告诉你事实的真相，他相信诚实和交流是最重要的，为了真实他也不惜伤害你的感情。水瓶座会告诉你他很多有关稀奇古怪的念头，他心中向往某个性感的明星，以至于你会认为他是一个浪荡的坏男人，但是，他仅仅是不懂得什么是隐藏。即使在你们热血沸腾，就要同床共枕，他还能友好、真诚地让你知道，他并不相信法定的约束是婚姻关系的保障，他不知道自己是否能够长久忠于爱情，稳定、持久的爱情是人们美妙的幻想。
　　
　　　　他不会整天在你的耳边甜言蜜语，他不用感情的词语点燃你。但是，他把关注和忠诚都留给了你（至少是在他于你相爱期间），他让你感到他对你的极大兴趣，他不把目光定焦在你的外表，他无时不刻地处处在研究你，他陶醉地观察你，他可能分析你所说的每一句话和干的每件事，他像观测实验室的动物一样观察你，他会关心为什么你会喜欢这个颜色，而不是那个颜色。他可能会问你一些更客观、科学、让你费心思的奇怪问题，即使在花前月下、春光怡人的花园、灯红酒绿的酒吧，他还能与你探讨飞行物、天外来客等与浪漫毫不相关的话题。
　　
　　　　水瓶座不会天天和你厮守在一起，他有广阔的朋友圈子，你只是其中的一个。与他的朋友相处，你突然发现世界上有如此之多的有趣、古怪的生灵。他有“恐近距离症”，他很难被激烈、亲密的感情所束缚，他更喜欢有些距离的爱情关系。不是他冷淡，而是他需要自由的空间以便获取不同的经历。尽管他表现得好象很能调情、很不忠诚，但是，他可能更感兴趣的是发现别人的思想活动，而不是别人的感情。
　　
　　　　如果你试图用情感的链条把水瓶座牢牢地栓在稳定得像城墙一样的关系，他就失去了转动的空间，他会不顾一切地挣脱你。
　　
　　　　和水瓶座在一起，你永不会感到乏味。他的大脑中的新花样和古怪的念头让你目瞪口呆，他的大脑永远不会停滞在现在，他的思想至少超越了时代50年，你会骄傲地感到他具有获得诺贝尔奖的潜力。他有无穷无穷的原创的思想和主意，如果能够实现，你们就不用为了生计再担忧。
　　
　　　　水瓶座渴望的女人是他终身的朋友，一个让他的大脑闪亮、刺激着他的思想的有趣的好伙伴，他需要那种能够让他的思想空间又增加新内容，还能够发现、承认他原创性的思想的女人。这个女人应该先做让他陶醉的朋友，然后才是生活和性的伴侣。
　　
　　他不是一个被漂亮的绣花枕头和性感的天使所奴役的男人，他更会迷恋那些睿智、独立、有着宽大阔广的思想境界和个性的女人。如果你能够打开他的思想大门，你就是他眼中的最具有诱惑力的美丽女人，他不为世俗的眼光而生活，他不在乎你是什么背景，你受到什么教育，你长得什么样。
　　
　　　　在感情上他天生就是一个淡然的生灵，他的理智不会让他像狮子、天蝎、白羊座、双鱼座那样放荡于爱情的海洋，你不要渴望立刻就成了不可分离、亲密无间的情人。
　　
　　水瓶座几乎是十二个星座中最具有人文思想，最能够为了女权而战斗的男人。但是，他也是最难以被束缚的男人，把他捉进稳定的爱情鸟笼中的困难度不亚于捕捉花蝴蝶双子座、野马的射手座。完全把自己交给一个女人对于他来说无疑是一个挑战，大多数情况，他不愿意过早地被关系而束缚而失去了自由。你若想与他结发到老，你就应该有准备慢慢地进行。
　　
　　　　他渴望他的女人不但能够给他空间，给他自由，也要像他一样独立自由，他无法承受一个在情感不能够自我保障，以男人为生活支柱的女人。他渴望他的女人是一个具有学习能力的女人，她必须热爱探索未知，热爱尝试任何新思想，热爱刨析新事物，用开发式的、甚至是古怪的思维方式看问题，这样的女人就会和他有考虑不完的问题、做不完的事情、消耗不尽的兴趣。
　　
　　　　水瓶座渴望女人不要有强烈的嫉妒心，允许他与别的女人保持良好的关系。这并不是由于他情感变化多端，那是由于他需要更多的新概念充实他的大脑，只有一个有智慧、有知识、超越现实的女人能够让他情感稳定。

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Copy from my friend post!
but its very true! =)

betrayed~

2011-01-16T01:15:00.001-08:00

Selfish, Jealousy is fulfill in human's brain~
even with the closest friends and family~
why those negative minded will stick with human's brain?
or just human looking for the negative minded?
i don't know, don't ask me~

When i got something new~
yet the things is we all looking for it~
i can share with you all~
but why when the situation is reverse~
you all not willing to share with me but only keep it inside your selfish brain?
seriously~
i was very disappointed with you all attitude~

when i got the work~
am i selfish and not share with anyone?
i not only tell you all can earn how much but also introduce you all go interview~
the reason is i hope i can give the best for my friends and family~
share with them without any jealousy~
but how come when you all found the work you all seems so worry people will fight with you?
just keep it as a national top secret~
not willing share and tell until somethings gonna crush with it~
and you have no choices but just telling out the truth?
very funny? very happy? very surprise?
why i don't think so?

Oh My God!
i freaking tired with the word start with "F"~
especially friends~
once and once disappointed me~
you can blame me with not having mature minded~
you can also blame me not think for you~
but how about me?
did you ever think about me?
what i gave to you and what i get?
yea! i did get something!
"disappointed" maybe this is the way you want to say thank you to me?
okies! i accepted~
no feels hard~

i have to understand that when i born out i'm alone~
when i death i also alone~
what to afraid or disappointed?
i have to keep on telling myself they really have some reason cannot tell you~
i told myself you ain't their best friends~
they don't have the duty to keep on tell you what they did~
i told myself they are really appreciate you well!
but at least i know now~
its bullshit~
no matter how i did and how i do~
the situation will not change~
the more things you do, the more things you get disappointed~
what for?

from now on~
selfish minded and jealousy minded will stick with me~
is the world telling me that i have to do this to protect myself~
everything i have to think myself before thinking others people~
got money i will fight to get all and not even share one sen with anyone~
ain't this good?
this is what you all always do for me what~
what so surprised?

Unsolvable matter~

2011-01-15T01:53:00.000-08:00

I really tired of this kind of lifestyle~
sinful and always stoop for something but get nothing~
not i greedy or jealous of others people~
but, i can't even compare with a poorest family~

tired of seeking unity of family~
not to say unity but will more to gather together~
hope that Sunday will be our family day~
can hang out together or even have a movie section will do~
a little bit time of lunch on Sunday~
but, it never come true~

tired of scolding mother for not always staying at office~
its very sinful scolding own mother you know?
but i really hope she can enjoy her lifestyle~
every time saw her spending time in office instead of own house~
Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, still not enough~
add one more Saturday satisfied?
but still not enough, have to work on Sunday also~

As a son~
who want their parent suffering in work?
a mountain of cases need to awaiting to solve~
many cases need to sent to government to approve~
many letter need to sent to Pos office~
need to fill in form, typing letter, let the customer scold~
explain to the customer~
morning work at 8am, come back at 6.30pm~
Saturday and Sunday work also only get MONTHLY salary~
no Overtime bonus, no commission, no what and what~
just a normal monthly salary but get suffer of this things~

as a son~
you though i will not worrying about your health?
you have to understand you almost fifty already~
you ain't eighteen years old that can claim here and there~
you still work like nothing needed to worry~
stressful lifestyle almost cover your normal lifestyle~
you not worrying but i care you know?

Boss not willing to hire worker yet keep on accept new and complicated cases~
you keep on help her and say cannot let the company close down~
Yes, you really such a good worker but what for?
you ain't get any extra things~
you ain't respected by your boss but complain yes~
worth it?

Seriously i not really want you to suffering with this kind of jobs~
if can i rather you resign your work and i stop my further study as exchange~
but i can't do that because my salary is not higher then you~
i can't anything but only can remind you to control yourself~
but you telling me those nonsense excuse~
you had done more then "try your best"~
still not satisfied?
you even willing sacrificed to that company~
i really not understand~

Yes, definitely i'm jealous of those poor family~
they are poor i know~
but the way their family doing is really good~
can watch TV and laugh together~
but what i get?
watch TV not even reach 5 minutes you fall asleep~
i rather lock myself inside a room and looking at the wall will more attractive~
tired of hoping you can spend more time enjoy with us instead of your headache work~
but you still choose to work~

MONEY~
you are such a evil things ever in the world~
you can make a people die because of you~
you can make a people betray themselves because of you~
you can break a family or a relationship because of you~
you can also make a person ignore their family because of you~
you can make a person become more reality and materialistic~
how powerful are you?
can you disappear in the world and return back original human to the world?
stupid foolish!!!

Today =)

2011-01-07T08:39:00.000-08:00

Today went to leisure mall with friends~
just same as the plan~
actually i was so surprised with Chan Hoong~
call me about 1.30am ask me whether want yam cha now~
weird max seriously!!
i was still blurring at that moment!!
no more next time please!!

okies, back to our topic~
Today about 11am~
receive a unknown call~
after answering, the Fitness First want me to go for second interview~
she ask me : can you come on this afternoon about 1pm?
i answer : yes!! (course i have yam cha with classmate)
then I'm so happy and go wash my face and brush my teeth nicely!!

after prepared those resume, photocopy IC, cert and etc~
go out about 12.35pm~
i know its damn late!!
but at least i reach there before 1pm!!
can consider punctual~
just same as what they want the most, PUNCTUAL

after about 20 minutes of interview with Ms. Leanne Tan (a beautiful max girl)
she told me that i been selected~
unbelievable!!!
i still ask back her when she will let me know whether i get chosen or not!!
damn awkward!!
but still thank God that i get hired!! =D

after that yam cha like usual~
talk and shout like nobody~
the waiter all looking us with weird eye side~
who's care?? as long as we happy!! =D

then some of them go to get the form but Ter-interview also!!
hahaha!!
no choices~
just interview lor~
hope you all get hired~
we can work or lunch together! =D

This second i might standing at the top of the world~
but not necessary next second i still standing at the top of the world~
everyone have the chances~
everyone have the luck~
don't feel sad because your luck ain't reached~
appreciate it well every single moment~

Good Night peoples~
Good Night world~

the power of words~

2010-12-31T11:46:00.000-08:00

I never think that normal talking will make so much things happened~
should be a normal chatting yet that's another story behind~
afraid, scare, nervous~
sometimes, things are use to gossip and share~
of course with real people that u trust will be no problem~
and because i expected peoples will not spread~
and i get my own hurts!!!

everyone know that i most appreciate friends~
our friendship will be appreciate by me until my end of life~
but still~
why i get this kind of result??
no more fairness in the world??

i know when i post this blog~
situation will getting worst then i can imagine~
but still i have to say this~
our world is really a reality and cruel world~
but not everyone (especially someone you trusted) will cruel and reality to us~
this world still have someone which excluded from the reality world~
we love each others (friends) without reason~
willing to give them protection without hope to get back any benefits~

gossip~
just like a craps but its not craps~
also not as a history which need to remember forever~
gossip~
no one will remember word by word~
or take action with what had said~
its just like randomly chat with your recent situation, how you feel, what's going on with past few month~
even first world top secret also will chat!!
so that we can able to close up with each other and know more about each other~
maybe can say its a way to build up a best buddy??

normal chatting shouldn't be so serious~
no one will have the time to go to say this~
"wahhhh, u know this people talk this behind you or not?"
or " this people do like this leh"
shouldn't be no one, but only those "friend" will do that~
i believe with my friends, if not i won't tell them~

a little message for you~
i know you might worry that i will betray by friends once again~
and you might helping me to be a good and faith person~
or should consider being a real man to the world~
thank you for didn't scold me and hurt me directly~
and thank for remind me to think clearer when do anything~
i wont angry you, but~
when you read this, my 72 hours will be re-count~ =.=!

Hate these kind of peoples!!

2010-12-26T02:44:00.000-08:00

Oh My Gosh!! really Oh My Gosh!!!
my Christmas mood ruined by some rubbish peoples!!
I really feel disappointed with your guys attitudes~
and especially YOU!!!

First of all~
i don't care whether the event was canceled or still carry on~
but i freaking dislike you either don't pick up my call or sms~
Hey, I ain't asking those bullshit questions okies?
I really have serious things to discuss with you okies?
if not why i call you? logic please!
time, duration, places, food, price and those things no one i know!
am i should keep quite and only pay and do what you request?
I ain't your maid okies! *what the fcuk*
you made me feel myself is so annoying!!
If YOU feel like i'm falling in love with you~
I can only tell you "Please look at the mirror"~ *Fcuk*

and i really don't understand what is the purpose of buying a handphone~
only reply your girl/boy friend? WTF!!!
i sms ten times got nine times never reply me!
can you give me a good reason that you don't want to reply?
no credits?? bullshit!!
if you really have the responsibility~
you will find a way to reply~
using your parent phone? or house phone to call me?
this can show that you like not taking serious~
while i just like a foolish to worry about this and that!
yet you are the one who asked why this why that!

Some more~
please don't ever shit do this things to me!
I call you and you missed my calls~
and you sms me and say "please call me again"! *what the fcuk*
i not purposely missed call you okies?
if your own false not answering my call!
you did not respond with what you had done!

Further more~
don't send me a short and simple message~
*call me please, now*
i will straight away curse you die immediately!!!
you wanna ask me or chat with me yet you want to waste my phone credits?
that i will be the innocent one to waste my phone credits to satisfy you?
who you are??
Prince or Princess??
Go bang the wall please!!
this world don't need this kind of rubbish!!!

Oh My Gosh!!
a short and happiness and sweet festival you had make me so pissed off!
with this kind of lame things!
seriously, you don't have the qualification to become a human!
lock yourself inside a room and think duplicate!!
until you wake up!!

P/S: if you have this problem please kindly change your attitude before too late~
P/P/S: i just mention to some people that always do this to me, if you didn't do, please do not be so sensitive yea~ =)

Satisfying my life~

2010-12-23T12:27:00.000-08:00

Woooooooow!!!
Recently i planted "mushroom" in my house~
you know what i mean?
okies, i admit it was a cold joking yet not funny -.-

Yesterday i went to Belakong Jusco to buy shoe~
Nike shoe!! =)
So happy that i can get discount because my relative was a stuff~
so my mummy suggested me to buy 2 pairs~
because hard to get discount if ain't relative was a stuff~
actually i was thinking to buy which colour at first~
because the colour that i like is almost same with the another one~
and this is the one i choose at LAST! =D

How how how?? nice??
any comment?? =D
*only good comment allowed*

I was sooooooooo hungry today~
Don't know what reason make me feel like this~
i ate Maggie and Egg Toast with Ham for the "breakfast"~
but after one hour, i feel hungry again~
and i was thinking to cook fried spaghetti~
yea, finally i do that~!
i added garlic and chili powder only~
and of course with my favourite ham~
show you the picture~ =D

Feel like wanna have a try??
okies, you all kindly slow slow wait yea~
those who have the chances to come my house~
remember to booking first~ *joke*

Something that make me feel sad again!
every times got the event, i got the sadness~
but i knew that we all are 金叙其外，败絮其中~
i will try to let down myself~
my emo was start from there~
i will try to put down to forgive myself~

♥ ♥ everyday was a brand new day!! ♥ ♥

Recent~

2010-12-22T07:25:00.000-08:00

Have to admit that i almost 1 month never update my blog~
although i knew that less people visit my blog~
might nobody visit also~
but i still have to write, write for myself~ =)

First of all, I feel so happy because STPM finally ended!!
FINALLY!!!
one and the half year of journey ended like this~
sincerely, i miss the moment that we making noise!
and every single action that we did and do in the class!
really 100% miss those unforgettable moment!
hope the result doesn't disappointed me~ =) *pray hard*

15 of Dec,
we have the last paper of STPM, which is account paper 2~
after that we went to sing k and steamboat buffer at night!
relax and enjoy max!!!
i sing, i shout, i jump, i dance, i do every crazy action in K room~
first time doing like this in K room!!
at night, i think 19 of us went to Shabu one to have steamboat buffer~
sincerely, the food not really nice!
but i still love it because we can crap and bullshit together~
really feel happy!!
after that we went to pavilion to take photos while waiting my father to fetch me home~

18 of dec,
we having our Prom Night event at Palace of Golden Horses~
again, the environment not really nice~
but i still very enjoy because of our unity~
morning, i think 11 of us went there to prepare around 10am~
we blow balloon, we decorate the place and etc~
night, we take photos, dance, enjoy the show and etc~
really enjoy max!!
simple yet satisfied! =)

Coming up next will be the christmas!!
Merry Christmas to all the people!
jingle bells, jingle bells, Jingle all the way~
what fun it is to ride, in a one horse open sleigh!
hope you all really enjoy it~ =)
Merry Christmas!!

Feels~

2010-12-04T14:25:00.000-08:00

Oh my god, really oh my gosh~!
again and again~
complicated feeling was appear in my mind again~

Yes, i'm out of control~
can't able to control what i suppose to think now~
but should i keep it up?
or just give up?
yet, i still very hope for the result~

To somebody that i wanted to tell~
i don't wish we just a friend~
i want more from you~
but, u will never realize~
never realized that I......

受了点伤 =(

2010-11-20T11:18:00.001-08:00

Suppose that would be my last post before exam start~
but i broke my promise and keep continue blogging~
nothing special~
just feel sad and wanna find some place to share out~
but too bad that the whole world was offline~
so, i think that here will be the most suitable place for me~

Suddenly i feel so unfamiliar with those people around me~
lost connection would be better to describe~
you know that i just like a “parasite"~
can't able to survive in single life style~
although i look strong on outside, pretend nothing happened~
but inside i care, i still very depend on them~

seriously, my life style still as a kids~
inside home, always depend on parents~
outside home, always depend on friends~
i had used to this kind of life style~
can you all please don't treat me like~
"sad, come and find me"
"happy, i can't even see your shadow"
can you all?

who am i?
a toys that ONLY company you in night time?
how about day time?
who am i?
only a piece of paper that you ONLY feel important during exam?
how about non-exam time?
who am i and who am i?

i wish to escape from this situation~
6 years, i had been waiting for 6 years~
about quarter of my life time~
but its never came true~
but just getting serious and serious~

i admit my weaknesses is always toward to friendship~
but not about others~
stupid enough?
you allowed to keep on laugh at me if you wish to~
but this gonna be a fact, forever and ever~

别管我会受伤~
想开、体谅、我已经习惯~
不然又能怎样?

这个城市太会说谎~
情，只是昂贵的橱窗~
沿路华丽灿烂，陈列甜美幻象~
谁当真谁就上当~

竟然以为你会不一样~
但凭什么你要不一样?
因为寂寞太冷~
虚构出的温暖~
其实，没理由能撑到天亮~

前进、转弯、我跌跌撞撞~
在这迷宫打转~
死心、失望、会比较简单~
却又心有不甘~

这个城市太会伪装~
情，就像霓虹灯一样~
谁离开之后~
却忘了把灯关上~
让梦作得太辉煌~

以为能够留你在身旁~
但是谁肯留在谁身旁?
一首情歌都比一段情更长~
这就叫做好聚好散~

别说你对我感到愧疚~
别说你会永远想念我~
我很知道孤单这条路怎么走~
请你不要安慰我~
我只是受了点伤~

Last post before STPM~

2010-11-18T07:18:00.000-08:00

As the shown~
this will be my last post for this month~
my exam will finish at 15 Dec~ *huraaaaaay*
but my exam will start at 23 Nov~ *yawnnn*
mean I still have 4 more days to polish myself~
so that i can be the most "shine" one~ *bliiiiiiink*
just a cold joke~
i know its not funny~ ._.

A lot of people keep on studying i know~
good luck and all the best to them~
you will get what you sew~

last few day i was in sick~
vomited 3 times and fever also~
did not touch any book yet~
hmmm~
left out a bit behind~
but i believe i can chase you all~

keong luv u^^

random post~

2010-11-14T06:36:00.000-08:00

Last week (as the date and time shown)~
attended a wedding somewhere in Damansara~
the food is not delicious and wait so long~
not really enjoy well~
but the bride which is my cousin is super awesome~
like top model~ ♥

but this is not the important one~
i have to make a correction about "her"~
last few week i had post a very rude post~
and i did listen and believe to third person instead of believe her~
i feel shame when i face her~
and thousand of sorry can't cover the mistaken~

someone told me that between us have too much of misunderstanding~
and all the things not as we though at first~
but what had past i don't wish to get it back~
not because i was cruel~
but i was shame to face her~
except blessing her and her bf~
i can do nothing actually~

but i learned something in this case~
don't always busybody to care about others feeling~
because the percentage that you can successfully guess it correct is 0~
and if you guess it wrongly~
might cause fatal appear~
we have no dare to play with this~

everyday you will learn something new~
but something that you learned can't able to remember everyday~
try your best and become the best~
then bet the rest~ =D

keong luv u^^

Last War~

2010-11-06T23:49:00.000-07:00

Its about 2 weeks time left to go~
scary STPM will start at 23 Nov~
we should had prepared well now~
no others turning point awaiting~
because we had reached the last corner~

sincerely~
i haven't prepare anything yet~
i still went to queue at "Uniqlo" yesterday~
i still went for shopping like nothing~
i still online everyday even though i realized most of them seldom online~
i still.........
seem like the STPM pressure haven't comes to me~
not saying i had fully prepared or too clever~
because its cover by my moodiness mood~

today i went to cut short my hair for STPM~
suddenly i feel sad~
because this gonna be my last time to cut short my hair~
due to i can get over schooling period after STPM~
i gonna miss my craziness friends a lot a lot~
and, i feel the scare and all pressure comes to me~

BUT now~
i will promise and control myself for online for long period~
and i will start to open book to study~
because~
i know my destination~
i know where i want to go~
i know what i want~

the subject that i want i know its kinda hard to get~
but i want try my best to get it~
because it will be my last and final destination~

Wei Keong~!
i know you can do it~
please do it before too late~
and start to be hard working for your future~
i know you can do it~
aja aja fighting~!!

To be an adult is to be alone~

2010-10-25T01:29:00.000-07:00

No one could understand my feeling~
u know that i like to keep all the things inside my heart~
anything, everything~
even its not related with me~
I care and i notice that~
but, did anyone comes to me or concern me??

every year, every month, every week, every day~
any hour, any minutes or any second~
i might be moody or sad because of something that happened~
but, did anyone send me a message which can cheer me up??
i found out that i'm a lonely, Mr. lonely~
no doubt~

just now i saw a friend wrote this in his wall post~
"Happy and full on the outside,
but only tears and loneliness on the inside"~
i realized that i been stay this kind of life for past few years~
loneliness and careless life~

in my heart, no one could understand~
although i laugh, i smile, i shout, i turn mad~
but that's a tear inside~
the more i laugh, the more pain its~

that kind of feeling~
maybe some could be understand~
but i can sure that not the one who reading my blog~
because you have a more happiness situation if compare with me~
seriously, no joke~

In my heart, i have a secret~
which no one know about it~
if you knew that~
you will know how suffer am I~

Little do men perceive what solitude is,
and how far it extendeth.
For a crowd is not company,
and faces are but a gallery of pictures,
and talk but a tinkling cymbal,
where there is no love.

მე შენ მიყვარხარ, ნამდვილად უყვარხარ

Brand new day~

2010-10-17T20:40:00.000-07:00

Hmmm~
really plenty of things happened with me last week~
all those unhappy things comes to me once~
i admit that i did not handle it in a better way~
just wreak with those "rude" words~
i'm feel so sorry about that~
don't ever want to think back those things~
let's start with a brand new day~ =)

Time Flies superb fast~
its almost time to graduate~
we just left few more days to enjoy schooling life~
we just left few more days to enjoy wearing school uniform~
we just left few more days to enjoy small group gossiping in class~
we just left few more days to enjoy blame with teacher gave too much homework~
we just left few more days to enjoy escape from/scare with spot check~
and of course we just left few more days to enjoy the moment that we stay together in one class~

some of you might not realized about something~
actually we will very miss those moment that we argue or angry with each others after graduated~
or just silently look at those person you admire most~
or maybe when nothing to do and tease your left right's friends~
am i right??
because its a part of our life that cannot escape~
and which we might not able to do it in College and university's life~

hmmm~
wonder that why i so miss the ~~school~~ student right now~
actually school did not make us wants to remember~
just the student inside make us feel happy, isn't??

tomorrow will be the graduation day~
i hope to take as much photo as i can with all my friends~
even with those who usually not that close with~
or else you might comes to me also~ =D

i was superb excited now~
hope tomorrow will be a good day to remember~
stay cheer~

Money~

2010-10-09T00:17:00.000-07:00

Feel surprised that I talking about money??
Hmmnnp~
It's kinda sad case for me actually~
not because i had no money to use~
but is lack of money to achieve my dream~

my dream doesn't hard to achieve actually~
but need to used up plenty of money~
i wish to study at others countries~
such as Taiwan, United Kingdom, Australia and bla bla bla~
but because of no money~
this dream was totally a DREAM~!!!

i wish to study my favourite course~
such as MassCom, event management, and bla bla bla~
but need to used up 50K above~
how could i force my parent to let me study that~
since they not rich and still working for low salary~

Recently in FB~
i saw many of my primary school friends had went to foreign country to study~
even my secondary school friends~
some of them went to UK~
some of them went to Australia~
some went to Taiwan~

what i most jealous with is both of them~
both of them was my primary school friends~
they was a couple since primary school if i not mistaken~
now they went to London for their further study~
and with a gang of friends~
how good if i was inside and going to there together~

like someone said~
"life is a book you've never read before... full of surprises!"~
who knows tomorrow i get a letter from UK~
offer me study there without any cost~
woots~
its such a mission impossible dream~

Moneyless,
Keong luv u^^

trial exam~

2010-09-20T02:12:00.000-07:00

Today is the first day of STPM trial exam~
hmmm~
started with the most important subject > PA~
but also started with not a good symptom~
the PA exam is dammm hard~
for paper 1 is still ok ok~
i think i might able to pass it~
but for paper 2~
i don't even have the confident to get pass~
overall, i can sure that i will fail my PA~

i just thinking of something~
if STPM real exam standard is harder then trial exam~
hmmm~
can i be so luckily to get into local-U?
well, u know i know and GOD will know~
am i wasted 2 years of time to study for form 6?
hmmmmmmm~
i still wondering~

my beloved dear God~
can u let me pass all the subject??
i just want pass only~
can u let me dream come true??
*dreaming*

ohh ohhh ohhhh~
now is the time to continue on my study~ *yawn*
tomorrow will have account 1 and economic 1~
good luck for my friends and ME~!! =)

little test~

2010-09-11T14:59:00.000-07:00

Nothing special~
just a random post~
its a little test from a website~
go google search and search for "maker.usoko.net"~
this web page is full of japanese language~
which is the language that i totally don't understand~ LOL
but the test is quite interesting~
and the result is quite accurate~

when i test about "脳内メーカー"
something like "what is inside your brain"~
the result is amazingly true~ *for me lar*
don't you feel that??

but when i use my full name to do it~
the result is surprising me~
totally not related with me~ LOL

Another lame test~
its about "3Dメーカー"~
which is something like "3D Maker" *don't understand*
the result is hmmmm~
dunno what happening~
coz dunno what its means~ LOL

ciaoz~ =)

...

2010-09-10T11:43:00.000-07:00

Hmmmm~
I really lazy~
lazy to take out the book and study~
although the trial exam is just around the corner~
but i still feel nothing with it~
maybe because of too stress??
or i'm fully prepared?? *impossible*
OMG~
i want to study~
i wish to study~
but i don't have the spirit to open any book to study~
teach me how to study can?? LoL

in a week of time~
i received 3 person invitation~
2 is celebrate friend's birthday~
another one is he randomly call to "yamcha"~
the only things can comment is timing not good~
cause i had rejected those invitation~
not because i'm LC or whatever~
just because I kinda busy~
busy with those wasting time things~
drama, shopping....
errrrrr~

actually i dunno what i had written~
but i just feel like what to post a blog today~
hmmm~
u can ignore this post actually~ LOL

懒惰~
最近只有这两个字可以形容我本人~
我相信大家都在努力的复习~
只有我在无所事事~
咳~
接下来的成绩~
满堂红是逃不掉的~
这应该是所谓的“代价”吧~

压力~

2010-09-02T07:52:00.000-07:00

坦白说~
其实我这个人并没有什么压力~
不是因为太聪明~
而是因为觉得不必要自讨苦吃~
但最近~
我真的发现到压力的存在了~
不论是在任何方面~
压力总是无所不在~
数学，经济学，会计学都给了不同的压力~
人际关系给了我更大的压力~
救命呀~
我真的快撑不下去了~

specially want to say thanks to my 2 friends~
which is Ms. PY Yong and Ms. PY Lau~
thanks for the supporting message~
it really cheer me up a lot~

especially Ms. PY Yong~
thanks for your kindness and willing to teach me~
i know i'm stupid and make u hard to explain it to me~
but what you trying to explain to me~
i really can feel it~
thanks very very very.... much~ =)

teach me~

2010-08-30T06:44:00.000-07:00

teach me not to be envy,
teach me not to be jealous,
teach me not to be angry,
teach me not to be sad,
teach me not to be depress,
teach me not to be moody,
teach me not to be fed up,
teach me not to be hate,
teach me not to be weak,
teach me not to be tear baby,
teach me not to be pissed off,
teach me not to be hot tempered,
teach me not to be silly,
teach me not to be sensitive,
teach me not to be mind.

要来的总会来,
要走的总会走。
苦苦强求，
自甘堕落，
总会有时尽。
当一颗属于你的泪水已掉落，
证明了你再也不属于我。
我们，分手吧。

teardrops~

2010-08-28T07:45:00.000-07:00

Is that a moody blog again??
what i can say is definitely YES~
because i'm those person only will voice out my secret in blog~
maybe in real life also~
but gonna wait for a period of time~
or else when you asked why~
if you don't get any answer from me~
don't get frustrated or force me~
because i just not ready for telling you the truth~
Today i met 2 person~
this 2 person give me same type of feeling~
which is happy and surprise when i saw both of them~
but end up with sadness alone~
i dunno whether i'm crazy or what~
my mood really dropped down as fast as playing "space shoot"~
the one who talk to me at first~
i know that he recognize me~
but when i leave there~
he seem like wanna find a place to hide~
and he's eyes keep on look at others place~
i dunno what's going on actually~
it's really so sudden~
maybe i'm too scary or maybe he not welcome me~
the another guy~
i think we just meet up about 5 times only~
every times we saw each others~
we did not talk~
and i don't even know how his voice is~
but dunno why i felt that he looked familiar~
after today~
i think i don't have that chances to see him anymore~
because of some reason~
hmmmmm~
why yea??
what's going on yea??
is that the problem is with me or with them??
i do really so sensitive with everything~
even it's smaller then virus or bacteria~
i also can sense it~
i hope my sense can sense wrongly~
but my sense never lies me~
not even once~
will this time be special??
but i think i will never know the answer~
because i don't think i have the fate to meet up with you guys anymore~
because your distance is too far and too unknown for me~

我变，人不变，事变也；
人变，我不变，亦变也。

lonely tears,
keong luv u^^

我们这一班~

2010-08-17T08:40:00.000-07:00

某天放学~
有位同学守在外面待着另一位学生的出现~
被等待的学生迟迟没出没~
等待的同学却在等“呆”~
守株待兔的愿望终于实现~
于是同学就抓紧时机~
问了学生一个问题~

同学：某天看到你的部落，你好像不是很喜欢你的班，那为什么今天你会做出如此决定？
学生：你是说关于班刊的事情么？
同学：是的。
学生：。。。。。。
（未完成）+（忘记了）=上面的对话

说实在的~
那恨意其实捱不了多久~
当发泄完毕~
又是全新的一天了~
不可能带着恨意执著一辈子吧~
确实的~
自从当上了这一班之主后~
火气，态度，性格完全不一样了~
360度的转变令我有时候难以释怀~

在同班同学方面~
24个人，24种性格，24种脾气，24种意见，24中要求~
为了不让任何人难堪~
我就得做出了24款迁就，24种对待，24种忍耐~
有时甚至是24种搞笑来缓和气氛~
我是解释，诉苦，并不是投诉，埋怨~
因为我知道只是我的责任，我的工作~

但~
生活在一个班内~
我们就犹如一家人~
意见不同，吵架，顶嘴，互相不爽是在所难免的~
谅解，忍耐，迁就更是完全需要~
老虎狮子喜欢吃肉~
但有没有听过它们会互食同类？
没有对吧~
因为它们知道同类不该互伤同类~
可是偏偏人类就爱互伤同类来寻求快感，什么对得起自己之类的东西~
而中间人更为难堪~

言归正题~
确实的班刊会比校刊内的班页难做~
可那份班刊~
是我们自己的行路历程~
只有我们自己人才会明白~
才会懂得欣赏~
比起校刊~
对牛谈情，敷衍更适合形容它的存在~
然而我明白最大缺点是时间上的问题~

不过这就是时候让我们团结了~
为我们所剩下的日子努力~
努力的弄出一本据有代表性的作品~
25个人说多不多，说少不少~
老套的说一句，团结就是力量~
912为截止日期~
距离现在还有27天吧~
吃饭吃粥都得靠我们自己了~

其实我深深相信~
相信着凭着大家的相信~
会有奇迹的出现吧~
不如我们这次放下所有的恩怨情仇~
全心全意地为班刊付出一切~
好么？

累~
我明白大家都会累~
但我不希望将会累变成挥泪~
记忆是我们自己的~
是要自己把握的~
大考当前~
其实也不想劳烦大家~
可是时间是问题~
就当成是为彼此最后的班上做出最后的牺牲~
好么？

废话连篇已够长了~
你的时间也浪费很多了~
深感万分歉意~
但还是希望你能感受到~

Monitor of PPU_UA1'10,
keong luv u^^

i hate~

2010-08-10T06:01:00.000-07:00

It was a secret for me when i was in PPU_UA1~
seriously~
i hate to become the monitor of this class~
not to specific mention who i hate in the class~
but overall i hate it also~
feel surprise when i say this kind of things??
many troubles come to me when i was in this class~
complain by this teacher complain by that teacher~
but i choose to not tell to the class~
and swallow it all into my stomach~
but what i get is~
seem like the things that give benefits~
they will comes to you~
but when that's a shit~
they will as you to solve yourself~

wtf right??
but i can 'tahan' until today consider awesome already~
what i think only~
i failed to control my class maybe because of i lack of management skill??
or because i have no convincing??
seriously i feel tired when i face this class~
as a head of the class~
or a monitor of the class~
i know i shouldn't say this kind of things~
but i know nobody will care about this~
because they don't even will respect me~
and nobody will come to my blog also~

i tell myself~!!
wei keong~
you still have few more month to go~
appreciate what you having right now~
but~
i think i cannot "tahan" anymore~
i really feel tired~
tired to become the third person~

endless emo master,
keong luv u^^

emotion post~

2010-08-07T09:45:00.000-07:00

This is the story that will never end in my life~
my emotion will never be recover~
don't ask me why~
because there's the reason for the "why" happened~
i bet all of you had at least 1 best friend~
don't need that much~
at least 1 is enough~
but what's happen to me is I don't feel like I have it~
not even the smallest number - 1~
actually i do feel like no one is appreciate me~
when i was acting funny in front of my friends~
what i wish is i can hold our friendship until the end of the day~
and of cause i wish they will appreciate me as well~
i don't know whether they thought i can be ignored or what~
but in fact i really get ignored~
what i did is really not for fun~
because i'm not a joker to entertain you guys~
i did shameless things sometimes is to maintain the things between us~
maybe for the relationship or friendship~
although i know hopeless will win instead of succeed~
yet i still work for it so that i will not regret one day~
but seem like what i did is the things that made me feel regret~
why why why??
why my life is so unfair for me??
i ain't greedy to want plenty gangs of friends~
but at least one also that hard to achieve??
not really understand is my problem or their problem~
to hire some friends to be my friends~
who volunteer to be hired by me to be my friends??
i know lame enough to used this method~
but except this~
which method can i used anymore??
appreciate them before they appreciate me??
never ever try with this method~
it will only make me end up with sadness, hurt~

i know i had bullshit enough to cheat myself~
but~
who knows i really need it~
like how important is the air~

stranger,
keong luv u^^

下一站~

2010-07-29T05:17:00.000-07:00

原以为此部落会被我荒废~
再也不会生产任何的部落~
直到，今天~
原以为生病时是最衰的事情~
然而一切的经过及发生~
令我对我的看法有所改变~
我相信这是件好事~
当我毫不犹豫的的相信时~
为什么“你”却要在此刻踏我一脚呢？
我努力的把你当成“朋友”看待~
而你又以什么看待我？
奴人吗？
你认识了我那么多年~
应该清清楚楚我的为人~
我的弱点你应该知道不少吧~
可是你却比任何人更会利用我的弱点~
你知道我会介意~
却在电话上大方的告诉我~
告诉你，你赢了，真的赢了~
你成功把握击退了~
满意吗？
你的意识告诉了我~
我已落伍了~
跟不上了~
你要我眼红你吗？
对不起~
恐怕要你失望了~
我不会被你比下去~

你的这一站或许我真的不适合~
下一站，幸福会等着我~

=(

2010-07-17T09:45:00.000-07:00

Really wish to shout a word start with "F" to you all~
i really not happy with your attitude~
anything that we did wrongly??
why you all want to treat us like that??
if you not happy or don't like to see us~
can straight away tell us~
if not also can ask others to tell us~
i hate you all do everything secretly~
maybe is not secretly~
but just obviously repel us~
if i know like this will happen~
i swear that i won't join that~
some more force us to buy the uniform~
yea~
it's very obvious that i saying you all~
i ain't feel afraid~
luckily last time we had canceled our plan to go to xxx~
if not i can't imagine what will happen~
you told us that you all didn't get the invitation from that school~
but end up u all "appear" in that school~
what a good excuse ya~
not only for that~
last time when you all got camp~
want us to help you along~
u give fully support and even try to help you get more people~
but end up you canceled that camp also not inform us~
walau weh~!!!
what are we actually~
you though we join that for escape all activities??
even though you are not going~
you all should at least let us know~
but you all didn't do that~
i wondering what are we~
just a transparent person in you all's eyes??
or other else~
i am so disappointed with you all attitude~
sorry to say that~
you all just like a shit~!!!
suck like shit~!!

T.T

2010-07-08T01:39:00.001-07:00

nothing much~
just a simple and short post to voice out my sadness~
i think most of them know the major reason~
luckily that's still some of them who know the truth story~
seriously i had satisfied~
and i want to say sorry to someone~
sorry that i did not treat you well~
and just like annoying you~
but really is because of my computer spoiled and busy~
i know you not wish to end up like that~
but~
just sorry and sorry and sorry~
and about yesterday badminton competition~
form beginning i just planned to win the first round~
but don't know why after i win that team~
i feel like i'm so stupid and useless because lose up the next round~
it's not because of that team is good~
but because of my own mistake~
feel guilty and regret that not perform well~
cause our first places gone~
and sorry to my partner also~
i think all of us had been moody for whole day because of MUET's result~
seriously when i know MUET's top student only get band 4~
i told myself if i get band 3 i will be satisfy already~
but when i saw the message that mention i get band 3~
i really not happy~
even tears want to fall down also~
weird right??
hmmmm~
will this result change after a week of time??
cause our result is not yet fixed~
because of something happened in between~
my god~
now is the time to think of am i need to retake the exam~
it's really troublesome~!!!

i know this is not a simple and short post~
but it really voice out my feeling~
i really sad now~!!
very very sad now~!!

属于~

2010-06-23T23:08:00.000-07:00

煞那之间~
我忽然觉得我的属于其实并不该属于任何人~
尽管我深深地相信“好心好报”~
也知道“好心没好报”~
对于你~
我就真的只有相信~
从没半点怀疑你~
不管别人怎么告诉我你们之间的事情~
我都替你们澄清，解释~
因你曾告诉我你们之间根本“不可能”~
当那个“不可能”已成为了“事实”~
知情人又给他人讽笑为过时人~
你又知不知道我拥有着怎么样的感受呢？
久逢的苦笑又再次展现~
都多少年了~
我奋不顾身的为着他人付出~
其目的就是为了拿回那少许的回报，信任~
虽然说付出不该求回报~
可是就那么的一点点都难以成功么？
我不懂，真的不懂人脑的结构~
不明白为什么挂在胸前的总是自私，贪婪，独霸~
难不成就不能以慷慨，大方，分享为主吗？
分享会分了身上的一块肉么？
然而事实却是证明着自私的人能独霸一切~
慷慨的人却被列为憨人~
这世界不公平的道理人人皆知~
可是真正领悟的人却寥寥无几~
能主旨正义的人更是难得一见~
我坦诚~
自私是这个世界上的捷径~
独霸是迈向成功的一段路~
但这不是唯一的路呀~
难不成就没有别的道路了么？
言归正题~
这不属于我的东西~
我不要~
从今以后~
冷漠，无情将会是我的主旨~
愿者居留，我无不欢迎~
怨者都留，我很不欢迎~

I gotta feeling~

2010-06-09T19:17:00.000-07:00

Should I say finally??
Finally I have the holiday feeling~
on the Tuesday night~
went to celebrate Woon Kheng @ Bighead birthday event~
nothing much there~
just chit-chat and crapping at winter season~
YES !!!
you are correct~
we really went to Wangsa Maju "Four Happy Season" to celebrate~
in the winter season~
we all almost become an ice cube because of the coldness~
but really fully enjoyed that 3 hour time~
no wasted~
of cause i need to thanks Jacky who ask me to go~
thanks dude~
and those 4 driver to fetch me also~
*Yi Bin > Wei Chung > Louis Cheah > Bighead*
really appreciated with your kindness~
yesterday have a great K section with them~
*kaiyang + siow ee + pui yan*
felt that i quite quiet yesterday~
but is because of my mouth ulcer only~
and of cause most enjoyable section is Yam Cha @ Pavilion Wong Kok~
many things had chatted~
included some people bad things~
muahahhahaha~
secret of the day~
seriously love those moment~
hope it can appear while i feel boring~
enjoy enjoy enjoy enjoy enjoy~
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

I ♥ those moment
&
I GOTTA FEELING

satisfied~

2010-06-06T08:19:00.002-07:00

Today i wake up ~~quite~~ superb late~
about 1pm like that~
after ate my lovely lunch~
my mother say go eat Mc.D~
because of i want collect the world cup Coca-Cola contour glass~
by the way~
the time is almost 2.35pm already~
some more need to rush to Jaya Jusco Mc.D~
hahahaha~
really doing a mission impossible~
but lucky did not late~
after ate the Mc.D~
we walk around at the Jaya Jusco~
i saw a singlet at Padini's shop~
but too bad it's out of stock~
and the salesman told us all outlet is out of stock~
except Damansara Ikano Power Center~
at that moment~
my respond is " WHAT, so farrrrrrr ?? "
but what surprise me is my mother say can go there and buy~
hahahhahahaha~
suddenly feel that i'm so blessed~

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

about 6pm~
my father come and fetch us go Ikano Power Center~
before going to there~
we have our dinner at a "FLY" restaurant~
full of fly~
swear next time will not go that place again~
after that continue our journey to Ikano~
super happy when i saw that singlet with suitable size~
beside that~
i also brought another 4 shirt~
total up is only about RM 120 ++ only~
so worth~
started to fall in love to shopping~
here is the shirt~

~don't give up~

~wondering how best it is~ lol

yea, we should be honest

this is the singlet that i mention^^

Padini's brand =D

how do you feel the shirt??
nice?? lol
awaiting your respond~

lone~

2010-05-28T04:47:00.000-07:00

what the feeling when you realize that actually you're a outsider of outsider??
especially is outsider of friends~
kinda a weird question isn't??
last time~
i always believe with one things~
when you did something good to everyone~
and God will treat you good as your reward~
but actually everyone is this world know that's bullshitting~
nothing will give you a reward~
even you go and fight for it~
still have to depend are you standing on majority side~
if ain't, prepare to lose everything~
actually i just hope to have some friends~
which can accompany me when i down~
willing to share something with me~
but it seem like never come true~
even though i go and find it myself~
but it just least less then one month~
short term friends?
can i have my own right to have a long term friends??
when i saw those picture in facebook~
i even worst then a outsider~
i saw those outsider can be able to close with them better then me~
really a loser~
and is that i too kind??
always cheated by them??
if they have private problem~
i sure won't get involve with it~
and if somebody birthday~
they will call me ask me whether want share the cake or not~
if no cake sure that i won't be invited also~
am i only those person to let you all used to reduce what you spend??
i really angry and mind~
and i still remember last time someone told me this~
never mind~
if you get repel by your classmate or old classmate~
i am here to support~
and ready for you to talk with~
but seem like she is the one who repel me at first~
i wish to escape from this cruelest city~
anyone have the same feels?

hot temper~

2010-05-22T06:43:00.000-07:00

i admit that my mood is going like a waves recently~
not because of her problem~
but because of some others problem~
this including examination~
friends~
and family's matter~
another things to let me crazy is him~
i really don't know What The Hell are you thinking~
just become friend only what~
even a normal friend~
also will let me feel like you ignoring me~
for others sure you will treasure~
for me you don't ever bother~
don't ever tell me that friendships can stay forever~
because we are the BEST example to shown that it ain't~
although we know each other~
and i shouldn't pose this post to humiliate you~
or make our relation become more awkward~
but your action really make me wanna explode~
please don't test me with this kind of things anymore~
cause my temper is not as what you imagined~
and i might CURSE YOU DIE also~
Don't play with it~
I am not a safe person to play with~!!!

sometimes i really wish to back to primary school~
although the friendship is a bit childish~
but it really a real friendship~
and congratulation that some of them can stay it until now~
so sorry i can't make it~

SICK~

2010-05-20T17:32:00.000-07:00

WHAT??
SICK AGAIN??
yes~
seriously i am in sick status right now~
and did not go to school also~

flu + fever + sore throat + headache~

sound seriuos right?
some more next Monday will having the mid-term examination~
i thought i can study in this week~
but unluckily i can't do it~
cause i really cannot concentrate on study with sick~
feeling annoy now~
wondering why i always sick~
even just stand under the Sun for 10-15 minutes also will sick~
ahhhhhh~!!
feel like wanna bust soon~
sad now~

T.T

i feel like i did not treat you well~
i am so sorry~

remembrance~

2010-05-14T07:40:00.000-07:00

Today will be a day to let me remember forever and ever~
i bet that i won't forget until end of the day~
not because of something happened~
but just because of something special~ ♥

당신을 사랑합니다
je t'aime

FRIENDS~

2010-05-11T07:28:00.000-07:00

You can comment me very lame person~
or very childish person~
cause i always been influence by friendship problem~
actually the appear of friendship should bring happiness to each others~
wondering why I so lucky~
always get sadness more than happiness~
i really serious with it~
not joking~
just a moment before this~
i suddenly thinking of something about friendship~
when i recall back my memory only realize about it~
all the friendship that i having so far~
seem like not least more than 2 month~
i mean after we did not meet each other~
if that only happened on me?
or you also face this problem?
suddenly i feel like wanna conclude "friends" this words~
it just like a by passer for us~
those by passer that can attract us~
maybe will make us more sad~
cause when we want to retain them~
but maybe failed to do so~
what to do?
we cannot control others people~
maybe I'm this kind of people~
always hope and pray for those things that not belong with me~
from now on~
i will change my minded~
those things that not belong with me~
i won't try to retain it~
cause that's your problem~
not mine~!!

camp perdana ' 2010

2010-05-09T06:42:00.000-07:00

The most "SUCK" camp that i went before~
you know~
the programmes is not planned well~
and the tents is built on the water field surface~
when raining~
those tents is not waterproof and water flow into the tent~
our bag is full of water~
the programmes full of boring talk~
a normal camp should not be full of talk~
it should be full of exciting activities~
luckily i can use the photographer reason to escape those boring talk~
i admit that i really super hate this camp~
and i also went back early~
if there's a lot of activities~
i think that i won't ask my parent for going back~
besides that~
that is also another reason for me to go back home~
when i reach home and stepped into bath room~
i really cried inside the bath room without any voice~
there's a reason for teardrops silently~
but i choose to keep it as a secret~
and some of them might know i'm emo'ing~
but most of them only realize i over tired~
but actually i ain't because of tired and start emo~
haiz~
a worst camp that i went before~
no security at all~
that's a crime case happen in the camp~
too bad that my group member "pei wen" hand-phone get steal~
she really cry badly at first~
but i admit that she is stronger then me~
after a while of time~
she really cheer up herself already~
feel relief as well~
and the theft really super weirdos~
steal girls bra also~
i wondering why all the people changed to this level~
i hate them~
emo will be carry on until the leaf reopen~
cause i am mimosa~
i have feeling too~
not like u just a normal leaf without any feeling~

P/S : St.John vice president really a gentleman, he answer me he don't want sleep because he want watch them and take care of them what's a prefect answer~!!

application~

2010-05-01T23:25:00.000-07:00

When visit my friends profile~
i spot this application in her profile~
< 優子姓名學個性分析 >
and my friends comment as 满准下 for this application~
so i go and try it also~
the result is~

內在想法

*個性非常的隨和、令人覺得很有親和力
*脾氣不錯比較懂得採納他人的意見
*有時太過於隨和讓人覺得無原則可言
* 常常當個爛好人，不懂得拒絕別人
*雖然平時脾氣不錯，固執起來時也挺像牛的

外在行為

*是個守規矩的人，對於認定的規則不會去犯
*責任心很重，對於該完成的責任不會推托
*一旦認定了某些人或某些事，就不容易改變
*重朋友的人，比較聽朋友的話，不理會家人的勸告
*對自己很嚴格，要求很高

Just want to ask~
how much you agree with it? LOL~

Labour day~

2010-05-01T05:49:00.000-07:00

Today is first of May~
as everybody knew, today is Labour day~
also is a holiday for everybody~
today i stay at home from morning until now~
really feeling good~
online and downloaded some songs~
and playing since morning until now~
really so comfortable~
nobody disturb me in morning~
cause mother and sister go out for sport~
even it's simple~
but i really like it~
and even love it a lot~
sometimes~
life just as simple as it is~ =)
and even no news is a good news~

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
١٥۷٤

lost~

2010-04-29T08:10:00.000-07:00

Recently~
i found out that i was lost connection with the society~
YES~!!!
i really been lost connection with the world~
no cheat no bullshit~
and my mood just like a fluctuated graph~
going up and down rapidly~
this moment my mood might be in top of the world~
but after 2 second~
my mood seem like reached to hell~
really unstable~
nothing gonna changed my mood except something~
a secret things~
if you don't understand~
just ignore it~

雨后的城市~
寂寞又狼狈~
路边的座位~
它空着在等谁~
我拉住时间~
它却不理会~
有没有别人~
跟我一样很想被安慰~
风，停了又吹~
我忽然想起谁~
天，亮了又黑~
我过了好几岁~
心，暖了又灰~
世界~
有时候孤单的很需要另一个同类~

原来~
我要的是同类~
并不是谁的某某某~
原来~
我们皆是彼此的陌生人~

The week~

2010-04-24T06:31:00.000-07:00

It can consider as a busiest week for me~
in the past few days~
there's a photo section for the form 5 and form 3 students~
and even for those clubs and society~
the situation is much more confuse then what i imagine~
crowded of people standing there and blocking all the way~
sorry for being so rude and shouting to those people~
because i have no choice to do so~
please understand me and do not blame me~
and there was a special moment to let me remember~
maybe it ain't special for others~
but as long as it will be a remembrance in my heart then enough~
another case~
i really hate those science stream student a lot~
*just mention some of them but not all of them*
because they are super duper selfish~
everything that needed to use energy~
you surely cannot spot them~
even prepare for their own MUET examination table also need Arts stream to help them~
it that science stream student is idiot or stupid or bangala?
or a prince or princess which cannot do these things?
F.U.C.K~
my temper really will rapidly increase when i think about it~
not only once~
but many times~
all the benefits science stream will get first~
but all the shit things arts stream will get first~
damn unfair~
after help them to arrange the table~
can't even hear a "thank you" word from their mouth~
FUCK you science stream students~!!!
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
brainless~
don't ever want to think about it already~
not worth to think about it~
and today is the MUET examination day~
sadly to say that i did not done well in the exam~
suppose i can do well in the writing~
but suddenly i feel i don't have any idea~
and the time almost end up ady~
so i just write those craps inside~
and even the listening~
i have empty some of the question~
cause i really have no idea with which is the point~
It's a complicated week as well~
my moody still remain in the bottom of the world~

p/s : sorry for being so rude in this post~

幸福點名

2010-04-24T05:07:00.000-07:00

幸福點點名遊戲規則回答下列問題並貼到自己的網誌or其他
寫完後
自己多加一個問題然後傳給十個人
可以點被點過的人
被你點到的人你要去跟他說【我點到你了】
寫完後去跟點到你的人說【我寫完了】
不可以不寫喔
不然幸福就會跑掉喔 =)

1. 我的大名 : 廖伟强~

2.我的生日 : 1991 02 08~

3.誰傳給你的 : 小自~

4.說出7個好朋友 : 某某某某某某某~

5.生日想要得到什麼禮物 : 有心就好~

6.近期開心的是 : 好久以前的事情了~

7.近期壓力大的是：考试？

8.未來想做什麼啊 : 歌星*发梦*

9.有沒有喜歡的人 : 没有~

10. 同學會要回去找老師嗎 : 一定要~

11.跟誰出去最幸福 : 自己~

12.如果你的兩個好友吵架了 : 帮到就帮~

13.跟情人出去最想去哪 : 没情人~

14.聖誕節要做啥 : 等“生蛋” *冷*

15.最想跟誰過聖誕節 : 圣诞老人~

16.有沒有迟起 : 没有早起过~

17. 有幾個兄弟姐妹 : 加我2个

18.最喜歡的一首歌(女生的) : 我怀念的-孫燕姿~

19.最喜歡的一首歌(男生的) : 低调-张栋梁~

20.喜歡什麼顏色 : 黑白~

21.上廁所會不會先沖水 : 不会~

22.愛不愛我 : 应该没有~

23.喜歡男生還是女生 : 我正常的很~

24.最想大聲說什麼 : 我很辛苦~

25. 半夜敢不敢自己上廁所 : 做莫不敢？

26.上廁所會不會褲褲 : 哈弥意识？

27.誰很欠打 : 很多叻~

28. 現在很迷什麼 : 听歌流眼泪~*三八*

29.睡相很差 : 不知道~

30.現在的時間 : 08 ： 45 pm

31.是否痛恨傳給你點卷的人 : 不会，反而很惊讶~

32.今天天氣 : 死气沉沉~

33.你懷孕了嗎 : 可能么？

34. 你若中樂透最想做什么 : 去呐喊~

35.大學生一定要玩的活動 : 还没资格进入~

【點名人物】

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*不想逼人，愿者请便*

看 tagged 吧

01- 【４號認識６號嗎】：-

02-【１０號是男還是】: -

03-【８號的興趣是】：-

04- 【１號有沒有兄弟姐妹】：-

05-【７號姓氏】： -

06-【１０號人緣好嗎】：-

07-【４號有人追嗎】：-

08-【承爱上２號呢】：-

09-【６號喜歡的顏色是】：-

10-【３號和１０號是朋友嗎】：-

11-【８號的生日是】: -

12-【５號讀哪呢】：-

13-【你怎麼認識１０號的】: -

14-【你跟１號的生日差幾個月】:-

15-【你和８號有出去玩過嗎】：-

16-【你喜歡和２號聊天嗎】：-

17-【你喜歡和8號在一起嗎】： -

18- 【你覺得７號人怎樣】：-

19-【你覺得９號人怎麼樣】：-

20-【你愛1號嗎】：-

1. 是誰傳給你這份問卷的 : 林自伟~

2.你們認識多久呢 : 半年有余~

3.你覺得他(她)對你來說很重要嗎 : 还不错~

4. 你與他(她)的關係是 : 朋友~

5.請問他(她)的興趣是 : 拍照吧~

6.你覺得他(她)的個性如何 : 都几悲观的 *像我*

7. 他(她)在你心目中是幾分(10分) : 6.8725分吧

＊睡覺前第一件事 : 关眼睛

＊起床前第一件事 : 开眼睛

＊你的偶像是 : 燕姿，孙燕姿，孙董~~

＊你喜歡的季節 : 冬天~

＊你打工過嗎 : 有~

＊打工次數 : 一次吧~

＊你想去的國家 : 台湾，美国，英国~

＊你討厭什麼樣的個性 : 自以为是~

＊你常哭嗎 : 暗地里~

＊你常笑嗎 : 很明显~

＊去玩時喜歡一個人去嗎 : 其实一个人没什么不好的~

＊是假日時你都睡到幾點 : 看心情~

＊今天的天氣是（晴雨陰）: 阴~

＊朋友和情人你會選擇（一个） : 朋友~

＊機會和命運你會選擇 : 自己~

＊你很自戀嗎 : 不然换你告诉我好不好？

＊這問卷多不多 : 很多，超级多~

＊要怎樣才能讓自己過的好一點 : 做回自己~

＊喜欢吃什么 : 草莓，蜜糖~

＊喜歡吃冰嗎 : 不喜欢~

＊現在幸福嗎 : 超级不幸福~

* 为什么？：不满足~

＊最在乎哪幾個朋友 : 暂时没有~

＊房間裡最重要的東西是什麼 : 被单，枕头~

＊最常夢到什麼 : 故灵境怪的东西，不逻辑的~

＊男人出轨要不要原諒他 : 他家的事~

＊你认为人生的意义是什么 : 一路发掘自己~

＊你知道吗？（看你们怎么回答！）: 不知道~

＊什么时候最讨厌我 : 暂时还没有~

＊向往出世抑或入世，向往道家抑或儒家？ : 不懂问题~

＊你喜欢吃什么蛋糕？ : 草莓味道的~

＊请问这个游戏可以停止了吗？ : 有那么简单么？

＊喜欢沙丁鱼吗^^？ : 不喜欢~

＊谁是你的知己？ : 镜子的我~

＊IQ/EQ哪一个比较高？ : 两个都没有~

＊電腦还是手機？ : 电脑~

＊比较喜欢睡觉还是玩？ : 睡觉~

＊Friendster 还是 Facebook ? : 以前现在~

＊现在最希望什么? : 飞到外国去过新生活~

＊喜欢草莓么? : 喜欢~

＊喜欢看谁的书? : 没看过，除非被逼~

＊拍过几次拖？：初恋，初吻都还在~

* 希望和谁结婚 : 没打算过~

memory~

2010-04-17T21:29:00.000-07:00

suddenly~
i re-stepped into a place that i used to go there before~
but a strange feeling come over me~
and guilty feeling also~
wondering am i the one who always sensitive in everything~
i admit that i am~
but in this cases~
maybe i ain't~
anyone that believe with me even though you don't know what happened?
it's really complicated~
now i'm writing this post with an empty brain~
maybe the grammer mistake appear again and again~
maybe pointless point appear also~
but~
i still gonna write it~
am i regretting about the cases?
or i am escape about it?
i want try to face it~
but it's hard to success after it become a memory between us~
no point i want to stay anything~
i feel so sorry about it~
if you really hear it or see it~
i welcome you to come and talk with me~
because~
i appreciate you~

my memory will just a sadness memory
unless you come and cheer it up

you know i'm saying you~
but you just don't want to admit it~
please~~~

normal?

2010-04-15T05:25:00.000-07:00

Recently~
really nothing special cases happened around me~
except those craps things or those bored things~
really feel boring~
sometimes~
i realize when i hope for something~
the "something" sure will run away from me~
but when i already used to it~
the "something" come over me again~
is that weird?
but that "something" sure not those ghost or what~
just is some of my anticipation~
or sometime what i wish will come true~
just~
i still feel like not satisfied with it~
feeling like still left something~
empty mood~!
maybe...
and maybe...