♪♫ I cried ♪♫

I can't believe that i'm so weak~
i thought i would never cry again after that incident~
but i did on the day before yesterday~
same problem again~
i hate myself for being so cares about how peoples feel~

i remember actually i was planning to ask one of my senior about the course~
i still keep on complain about the course that i taking is all in Malay language~
for example, mathematics that i studied for 7 years in English suddenly need to change back to Malay~
and one of my lecture didn't even know how to speak English or Malay~
only knew how to speak Bahasa Indonesia~
i wondering how possible UUM can hired this kind of lecture to teach~
bla bla bla~~~

i tell my senior that i feel so stress because of my friends~
i tell my senior A to Z about my uni's life~
as well as what i been gone through that few past days~
suddenly my tears drop down non-stop~
its in the bus that on the way back to my hostel~
peoples that in the bus i guess they can see i'm crying~

i feel so stress because of friends that keep on putting pressure on me~
keep on ask me to help them do something while i still haven't settle my things~
i feel like i was tied by my friends and i can't even breath for that few days~
i don't have any freedom to do my things~
as same as when i going for the talks they can just ask me to go to do somethings for them while they not going because of "non-sense"~

besides that~
i thought i can be very friend with my roommate but the situation tells me its not~
why do i say so?
my roommate seems wasn't like to stay at room~
keep on go here and there~
you know? he willing to go to down there to wait for the others newbies in stead of me this roommate~
i can feel something wrong between us but i dare not to ask why~
and i just can keep inside my heart and still need to pretend like nothing happened~
maybe i'm too sensitive?

i faced so so so many trouble in my university actually~
but i dare not to share out thru my facebook and just can write all the things here~
the reasons is to avoid my family knows about this and worry about me~
so with this, they can only think that i live in a health and happy environment~
but the fact, you know i know will do~

shhhhhhhhhh......
this will be a secret between me and you~
remember don't tell anyone~
thanks~ =)